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It still boggles my mind that there are people who are actively antipathetic to the idea of making their lives better. Like, I don't even have to say This Is the One Way, or ask for money, or anything. I just say, "It would be better if you were happier" and people recoil.
Why are we so attached to our unhappiness? Why do we feel so threatened by the very idea that we have influence over it? Why would anyone RATHER believe in a world where the entirety of their mental landscape is in the hands of outside forces?
The world is what it is, but even as someone with one of the most intractable mental health disorders on the planet, I can confidently say that what goes on inside your own skull is up to you. For me, control takes more work than for most, but there is no work more worth doing.
Can I control my every mood every minute? No. If I could, I wouldn't be posting this, because I wouldn't be so bothered by people's negative responses to me just... reiterating truths our wisest have known for thousands of years (some of those years worse than 2020).
It's not about perfection. It's about simply -wanting- to take responsibility for as much of your own life as you can. Just having that as a -goal- instead of spending your entire life trying to find the sharpest possible words for how unfair everything is to you.
No one promised fair. We can all do our best to work toward fairer, better, more just. But constant misery and rage isn't necessary to that process.
We all have the keys to the vehicle that is our own mind. We may not know how to drive it yet. It's a process. But no one else has the keys. You can't just hand them to someone else. That's where the metaphor breaks down. They're stuck in YOUR hand.
So your choices are learn to drive, or don't. I don't understand why anyone wouldn't even want to start learning. But that's my frustration, my anger, my disappointment. My posts about it are because I think I can DO something, can HELP. If only a few people.
But maybe I can't, in which case I should focus on something else. At the very least, I should focus on something else today. And rest resigned but calm in the knowledge that the people who are irked by what I say aren't people I could have helped anyway.
