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yeah I know I don’t stutter when I’m in my zone but sometimes there are shared zones and then there are the zones completely foreign to you and you just can’t help yourself.
you know you’re stuttering and because you know you’re stuttering, you do it even more and more
you know you’re stuttering and because you know you’re stuttering, you do it even more and more
add your anxiety to the mix and your brains trying to process three thoughts at a time:
- I’m stuttering
- I’m panicking and people can see me stuttering
- I need to process what I am speaking before I speak
- I’m stuttering
- I’m panicking and people can see me stuttering
- I need to process what I am speaking before I speak
You hear people telling you to “relax” and take a pause but old habits die hard.
For 24 years you have been trained to reply instantly. You never really get the pause.
Being able to slow down your speech, and adding pauses when you deem like it has a power dynamic with it.
For 24 years you have been trained to reply instantly. You never really get the pause.
Being able to slow down your speech, and adding pauses when you deem like it has a power dynamic with it.
Most situations make it impossible for you to simply “pause”. You can see the looks on everyone around you, and you KNOW they cannot wait for the whole ordeal to be over.
And even if that’s not the case, your anxiety jumps in. It just can’t let you pause. It just won’t.
And even if that’s not the case, your anxiety jumps in. It just can’t let you pause. It just won’t.
The problem is that stuttering, especially in adults, cannot be cured with a magic potion once and for all.
It takes work. It can be because of weak speech motor muscles, a lack of coordination between your brain and the muscles, mental disorders, and your brains functionality.
It takes work. It can be because of weak speech motor muscles, a lack of coordination between your brain and the muscles, mental disorders, and your brains functionality.
Overcoming stuttering is a journey in itself. And it requires work. A lot of work.
I was never really ready to put in that much effort. Like why should I? Why couldn’t I speak effortlessly just like everyone else could? Why did I have to fucking stutter and overcome it?
I was never really ready to put in that much effort. Like why should I? Why couldn’t I speak effortlessly just like everyone else could? Why did I have to fucking stutter and overcome it?
And the speech therapists here don’t make it any easier. Most of them cannot relate with the patient, or simply lack the ability to address the root cause and offer a specialised program for the patient.
No two people stutter the same way, or for the same reasons.
No two people stutter the same way, or for the same reasons.
For a long time, I didn’t even want to work on it.
Like why should I? Why couldn’t I be normal, and speak as effortlessly as others can?
I lamented how people could speak gibberish for hours without a thought, and I always had to think if mine speaking out was worth it.
Like why should I? Why couldn’t I be normal, and speak as effortlessly as others can?
I lamented how people could speak gibberish for hours without a thought, and I always had to think if mine speaking out was worth it.
But now I’m ready to put in the efforts. I’m ready to embark on the journey for myself. I just cannot deal with it anymore.
I’ll put in as many hours, for as many months as it would take. And I know I’ll never fully be able to remove it. But at the very least I can control it.
I’ll put in as many hours, for as many months as it would take. And I know I’ll never fully be able to remove it. But at the very least I can control it.
I know that my circle doesn’t care that I stutter and that helps me feel “normal” but we know it’s a harsh world out there.
The corporate world can be ruthless and sometimes only a single trait can be the deciding factor in your career path. I just can’t risk it.
The corporate world can be ruthless and sometimes only a single trait can be the deciding factor in your career path. I just can’t risk it.
I’m praying for myself. I’m hoping that I find the energy to get through with it.
I know it’s going to be a long journey, and it’s going to be demanding. I wish I find it in myself to move through it and finally overcome my nemesis.
I know it’s going to be a long journey, and it’s going to be demanding. I wish I find it in myself to move through it and finally overcome my nemesis.
