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How did u know u were trans? Sorry if that’s an odd question Ur just a very confident trans dude and I was wonder… — i have a feeling this may be long so i'm gonna put it in the replies just in case https://curiouscat.qa/dreamkeeper/post/1183886283
bare with me pleaze bc my memories esp from my pre-teen and younger teenage years are kinda blurry. i think that ever since i was young there was a slight twinge there that i was a little bit separated from being a girl like i was always. different from everyone
i wasn't necessarily a tomboy. i actually loved some parts of femininity. but as i grew up and became self aware and had to like position myself in the world it dawned on me that i was.... not normal. it started out with me realizing- and i don't usually use this term- i'm queer
i had realized i was definitely not heterosexual but as i started to think i had realized that shit bro i never. thought about gender. it was forced onto me that i should be a girl and i went with it.
abuse ment
but in the moment where i was forced to question it when my abuser (thankfully i cut him off a while back) came out, then as nonbinary, it made me question everything about my gender and around it
but in the moment where i was forced to question it when my abuser (thankfully i cut him off a while back) came out, then as nonbinary, it made me question everything about my gender and around it
i had started to realize that fuck!!!!!!!!being called a girl upset me. but back then, at about 12 i think, i still had internalized transphobia that i had to work through. i'd always stick to a certain identity, always force myself to be tied back to being a girl
it would be a long while until i realized i was a man but the moment that i tried out he/him pronouns only, not in tandem with they/them or she/her etc, was so incredibly freeing and i knew i couldn't turn back on it
but being entirely secure in my gender identity only happened when i allowed myself to accept i was gay. something had been off, i was still trying to force myself to not be me and to love anyone else but a man
and it was the internalized homophobia and transphobia speaking: being a trans man was bad enough. was i really gay, too?
the realization that i was a gay man only happened in late 2019. the moment i accepted and EMBRACED that i was gay was the same moment that i felt secure in my gender identity.
the reason i am so confident in my gender now is because i gave thought to everything around me- including the way i love. for some people, it doesn't affect their gender, but for me, it most definitely did
