When I saw how weak and pathetic I’d become after being born and buying into the mainstream world, I lost my shit

I had to get away from everything familiar

I could not beLIEVE the fraudulence in me and everyone else.. felt schizo with what I was realizing

I put myself on my..

metaphorical death bed, out in freezing cold Montana and living in a trailer park working a minimum wage sous chef job with no friends or family within thousands of miles, because I was sick of being weak and uncertain of who I was

I burned myself with truth, to feel ALIVE again

And on my conceptual death bed, where I really let myself feel into the truth that one day I’ll never fucking be here as DrJrey anymore and won’t have a chance to love my people and this world, I realized I just want to help others’ find potential

I want to help people find SOUL