How The Pandemic Drastically Altered My Life & Helped Me Find God Again
This one is personal.
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This one is personal.
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March 12th, 2020.
The country locks down.
We head into isolation from something we cannot see, but something we fear & know is there.
I was unaware of the dark valley I was entering.
The country locks down.
We head into isolation from something we cannot see, but something we fear & know is there.
I was unaware of the dark valley I was entering.
I stayed up late & woke up late.
Started schoolwork around 4 pm & did it sloppily.
Didn't care anymore.
Suddenly, school was nothing.
As I stopped caring about my grades, I stopped caring about every other aspect of my life.
No exercise, 1 meal a day, completely isolated.
Started schoolwork around 4 pm & did it sloppily.
Didn't care anymore.
Suddenly, school was nothing.
As I stopped caring about my grades, I stopped caring about every other aspect of my life.
No exercise, 1 meal a day, completely isolated.
2 weeks went by.
I was sent to a psychologist.
Diagnosed with depression.
A big defeat for myself.
It didn't help knowing I was depressed, it only made my condition worse.
I lost 5 kilograms of weight.
I didn't even want to make eye contact with myself in the mirror.
I was sent to a psychologist.
Diagnosed with depression.
A big defeat for myself.
It didn't help knowing I was depressed, it only made my condition worse.
I lost 5 kilograms of weight.
I didn't even want to make eye contact with myself in the mirror.
It reached the point where it didn't matter if I suffered a heart attack and died.
It would make no difference to my mental state at that point.
I was a failure & my parents were disappointed and afraid.
I felt left alone by God.
I felt like He had given me enough chances.
It would make no difference to my mental state at that point.
I was a failure & my parents were disappointed and afraid.
I felt left alone by God.
I felt like He had given me enough chances.
One night while I was laying in my bed contemplating the darkness, I felt something.
I need to read the Bible.
That feeling cannot be explained into words.
So I started reading Ecclesiastes & Proverbs.
My heart was filled with immense love & joy. A feeling I've never felt.
I need to read the Bible.
That feeling cannot be explained into words.
So I started reading Ecclesiastes & Proverbs.
My heart was filled with immense love & joy. A feeling I've never felt.
God heard my outcry & answered my prayers.
I found meaning.
I found hope.
God gave me a purpose.
I started reading the Bible more often.
I also started exercising and eating more often.
A routine amid insecure times made my mental state better.
God gave me hope again.
I found meaning.
I found hope.
God gave me a purpose.
I started reading the Bible more often.
I also started exercising and eating more often.
A routine amid insecure times made my mental state better.
God gave me hope again.
I started living more productively.
Read tons of books.
Classics, biographies, poems, essays, short stories, everything.
Art, literature, architecture and classical music were the things I was interested in.
Not video games, Netflix and YouTube (things that drained energy).
Read tons of books.
Classics, biographies, poems, essays, short stories, everything.
Art, literature, architecture and classical music were the things I was interested in.
Not video games, Netflix and YouTube (things that drained energy).
Looking back at how things were before the pandemic, I see something peculiar.
I was happy, yes—but I was unaware of how little I knew about myself.
I had no purpose, yet, I was happy.
I didn't know God the way I do now.
For the adversity I faced made me the person I am.
I was happy, yes—but I was unaware of how little I knew about myself.
I had no purpose, yet, I was happy.
I didn't know God the way I do now.
For the adversity I faced made me the person I am.
I am now fully committed to achieving my purpose & bettering my connection with God.
I exercise four times a week, & I am happy with who I am.
The pandemic broke me, but shaped me.
If it was God's will, then I am thankful.
I now know who I am.
I now know what I want.
I exercise four times a week, & I am happy with who I am.
The pandemic broke me, but shaped me.
If it was God's will, then I am thankful.
I now know who I am.
I now know what I want.
Thank you.
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