I have a question.

Do you people really have people that you are truly comfortable with enough to share how you feel? Enough to tell them your life's challenges without concealing anything? Do you feel relief?

Because all I've known is winging it. And it is brutal.

I always felt like it would be burdening them.

I have never told ANYONE exactly how I feel. Not my parents, not my girlfriends, & certainly not my friends.

I simply draw back into myself, and disappear until I can handle the problem.

For me, it's not the fear that they might use it against me.

It is that I truly do not know how to share my pain. I only like people around me when things are going right.

When shit hits the fan, I want none around me. Not calls, not nothing.

Until I am happy again. Then I can be around people. To make merry and laugh.

Until the next tragedy.

To even imagine that there are people who feel confident enough to share & experience relief afterward sounds like a miracle.

I should be so lucky.