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I feel like it’s time I talk about my baby boy Serky. He’s going through so much right now. His head is foggy, his heart is fragile. He is detached from reality. He doesn’t know who he is anymore. It’s a mix of a lot of versions of him. The infamous Robot Bolat, the romantic nerd
+the vulnerable teddy bear and the wounded man. His reality now is that everyone and everything around him has changed, his parents are divorced, his mom has overcome her fears, his best friends married each other, half of his company is not under his control owned by a stranger+
+the only thing that hasn’t changed for him is Selin, his childhood friend, his puppy love. Someone he used to call his lover. He is so lost. He is desperately trying to hold on to her. She is his comfort his safe place right now. He is guiding him like a mother figure he trusts+
+her with his life right now. And on the other hand there is his heart messing with his head. Random flashes that keep disturbing him. Nightmares of the accident at night. He feels like something is missing but he can’t quite put his finger on it. His pov now is constructed by +
+Selin who made him believe that Eda turned him into someone that’s not him, took away his friends, his family, his dog and his company. Turned his life upside down. For him in this state “love” is more foreign than ever, especially their wild love story When he sees her for the+
+first time he feels her presence in his heart before he even lays his eyes on her. He catches her without blinking twice but he can’t tell why. He touch, her scent, her voice, her tears, her hands it’s all so foreign for him. He is not used to this much intimacy not from Selin+
+he is not used to this kind of love. Overflowing with emotions. He is trying his best to stay calm and collected but her breakdown is inevitable. The only thing that has kept her going was her hope. And now he is back, he is breathing, he is near yet so far away. Ground beneath+
+her feet is breaking. Her heart is shatterred but he doesn’t understand it. He doesn’t want to think about it bc it sabotages his logical chain, his comfort zone. If he starts digging and realizes that Selin’s been lying to him all this time his world will collapse once again+
+and he can’t afford that. When she kissed him for a split second he felt something, he felt at peace like no one else existed but them but then he snapped back into reality and had to cave harder, build his walls up again to survive. He wasn’t ready to face it yet.That’s why he+
+made that proposal. His voice was shaking, his heart was trembling, his eyes were focused on Eda when he was talking. He was thinking about her lips on his lips, bc he wiped his mouth in the middle of the speech. That kiss changed things for him. Next day his walls were back up+
+he felt secure again. Then the reality of Eda walking out of his life hit him. At first he didn’t think much about it but then her wanting to get away from him strike a cord inside. Even though he wasn’t ready to face it. Engin calmed him down and approached him right overall+
Despite the fact that he thinks Engin is also manipulated by Eda he still trusts him, listens to his advice, called him for help after Eda’s breakdown, asked him to tell their story. Then Deniz entered the picture and he saw the threat in him without realizing it Put on+
+defensive act. Biting back at that breakfast table. The more time he spends w Eda the more curious he becomes about her. He slowly realizes he wants to get to know her again, he wants to learn about their love story As much as it scares him he wants to know this side of himself+
+the one that’s capable of such feelings, the one that’s free and wild enough to dream and to want to be loved in this way. He is touched by Apollo’s story deeply. He starts realizing that it’s her who haunts his dreams with flashes of that yellow dress. He feels the need to be+
+near her, to touch her, to smell her scent, so foreign yet somehow familiar, his whole body is shaking w fear of falling into the deep end with her, his eyes filled with tears, his mind racing trying to piece together what’s happening to him. And at the same time feeling guilty+
+for wanting her while being with Selin and being ungrateful for how much she has helped him. That’s why the next day he decides to let go of the delusions and keep on pushing Eda away. He feels that it’s in everybody’s best interests. Up until the moment she announces her+
+engagament. We didn’t see his fulk reaction yet but I’m guessing he felt his heart break without knowing the reason for it. That dress finally made sense to him bc he saw her face in the room. It’s all coming back to him and being ripped apart at the same time.Jealousy will hit+
+him like a hurricane. His possessive nature will get curious as to how she was able to let go so quickly and be drawn to her more. Looking at her with so much longing in his eyes, w fear of losing her forever. His heart will take over his head and he will act upon his desires+
+sooner rather than later his body will betray him. Their attraction was there since the first time they laid eyes on each other. It will be very hard for him to resist her. He won’t be able to do that for long. His explosion will be an incredible thing to witness. I can’t wait.
