Dear Kids

When i was a kid,
My dad was this invincible hero.

I was thinking that :
Nothing could take him down.
Nothing could have hurt him.
I was so proud of him being my dad.

When i grew up,
I saw his flaws.
I discovered the struggle

Life was hard to him
But he handle it like a boss

He was crushed, He lost his spirit, i never knew about
He was broken, he never showed it.
He was sad, he never said a word.

I only understood this when i was an adult

Now that i'm a Dad, im trying but i don't know.

I don't know
If i'm doing it right.
If i'm giving you enough love
If i'm giving you enough attention
If i'm giving you the good tools to succeed

I don't know if i can be my invincible dad for you.

I love you from the bottom of my heart but now i understand,
Like my dad, he was just trying his best.

So dear kids, i hope you'll forgive me someday.

I swear, i'm trying here, this is my best.

And it terrifies me because i don't really know if this is enough.