During Survivor the hunger you feel becomes less intense a few weeks in and turns into more of a feeling that you’re aware exists mostly in the obsessive food talk or when someone eats a reward in front of you. Other than that, life oddly normalizes.

That is until day 39. 1/

On day 39, you wake up & all you can think about is breakfast. Pancakes. OJ.

You run into the woods expecting the feast but all you find is a stupid mirror, so you stand in front of it looking at your weird skinny body, wondering & maybe even shouting when do you get bacon?! 2/

The hunger is suddenly pervasive, you can barely celebrate your dumb torch never being dumb snuffed cause where is the dumb food you were promised & why do all the camera guys look like sausage & maybe they actually are food and should you eat them on the off chance they are? 3/

The point: pandemic exhaustion is normal. Vaccinations coming out may have increased the strain in a way you didn’t expect.

You can be happy for those getting vaccinated, maybe loved ones. Thankful. & still you may suddenly FEEL it all at the same time cause it’s right THERE. 4/

The day 39 breakfast you know is coming exists, you just have to wait till production leads you into the woods & it’s not that stupid mirror, but some potential relief.

It’s okay to feel frustrated, upset and let’s be real hungry right now. The in person pancakes will come.

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