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okay I am going to do a thread here because I overshare anyway and I feel like I just want to get this out
I hope I didn't make it seem like too big a deal a few days ago when I said I was gonna be off, cause I really did think I needed to force myself to be off of twitter
basically there was someone on here that I sorta liked and having the anxiety, adhd, and god knows what else
basically there was someone on here that I sorta liked and having the anxiety, adhd, and god knows what else
that meant that I got a lot of anxiety and hyperfixation, and I would be on here a lot trying to be funny/just keeping up my appearance on here, leading me to use the site excessively, and tearing apart my mental health (cause I am not able to handle a crush lmao)
a few days ago that situation got resolved (so to speak LMAO), and that's when I made that post about going. If you don't know, a part of ADHD is rejection sensitivity, so in general getting "negative" reactions or not feeling accepted can kinda throw me for a huge loop
I was really out of sorts and thought now that I didn't feel I needed to be on here, I would have to force myself to get off, and that it was the best chance,
little did I know that having that previous situation end basically cut me free from the insane anxiety
little did I know that having that previous situation end basically cut me free from the insane anxiety
and tethered-ness (?) I felt towards twitter
like it's insane, having gotten over the RS (which goes away after a little) I feel so so so so much better
I don't feel like I have to be checking twitter constantly, I don't have to worry about messages, or what I sent, or if
like it's insane, having gotten over the RS (which goes away after a little) I feel so so so so much better
I don't feel like I have to be checking twitter constantly, I don't have to worry about messages, or what I sent, or if
I sent way too much (spoiler alert, I am a bit overwhelming when I am not grounded, who woulda guessed amirite) and all that stuff that people worry about that I worried about x10 constantly
BASICALLY, I thought I would have to force myself to stay away from this site but getting over the crush thing actually kinda did that for me, so sorry if it seemed like I was making a huge deal about it all, I was in a weird(er) place (though who isn't these days tbh)
so yeah, I'm not really gone but I don't feel the need to be on so much to the degree that I was (which was WAY too much) so sorry that I made it seem like a huge thing I just wanted to make sure I didn't let twitter get even more of my swag 
but I'm still around
but I'm still around
This was all very personal and unnecessary but it wouldn't be me if I didn't overshare plus it's my twitter account I can do what I want
also I love you all I missed seein and talkin with yall here so that's a reason to check back in okay that is all this was too long
also I love you all I missed seein and talkin with yall here so that's a reason to check back in okay that is all this was too long
