*sees certain fanarts* whoever thought owen in love would be a good idea in the coly team i need to kiss your feet

PLLLLEASE HE IS AWARE OF IT HE KNOWS. HE KNOWS HE HAS KNOWN IT SINCE THE BEGINNING AND HE'S JUST VIBING WITH IT but the idea of actually being loved back is what scares him LOL

you can see the way he thinks and talk about cain in Whereabouts. his thoughts are gentle he sounds so in love like that's genuine and pure adoration and he's just okay with it. he is proud of it, even, and starts dancing under the moonlight on the roof, because he's happy for it

i really like how the metaphor was a bear eating honey vigorously because a bear is a scary animal but rlly soft i love bears ok . and honey is sweet and when you have some you automatically want More. you can see it as horny tbh i also see it like that sometimes LOL but +

+ overall it was nice to read owen so genuinely happy about feeling a Single Thing for someone. he was desperate to know if cain was doing well or not since bradley told him that because of his fault, cain had been expelled. owen even thought about leaving cain's eye because +

+ his "treasure" (happiness) was suddenly destroyed he was just so worried and then IMMEDIATELY AFTER JUST BY THINKING ABOUT CAIN HE WENT LIKE *THIS*

the way owen being in Love is not portrayed as something he hates. owen was scared of cain because he didn't know what would happen to his eye — i can see now how this is only a metaphor to owen being afraid of his feelings beeing taken advantage of/cain crushing his feelings

owen's healthy "one-sided love" is a Fact. please he was wearing a white anemone on his suit. this white flower means literally that

he's happy like that. what owen fears is his feelings being toyed with, being hurt, he doesn't even want cain to return them on the first place. he is afraid he might return them, actually (because he doesn't know what to feel when he's loved, not only romantically)

so that's why when cain told owen he wouldn't leave him alone, owen went stupid and didn't really know what to say besides I hate you I'll kll you etc. that was a cute nervous moment lol

you can see how owen is okay with not being returned feelings in that scene precisely. owen constantly rejects cain's proposal to eat with everyone and smiles while seeing him go with everyone else he's just glad cain is alright but has a hard time getting involved

that's probably on owen's lack of self-esteem or him adoring cain so much he thinks he's going to hurt him further (after all, he does mention he tends to hurt those he loves the most) so he's trying to push him away ("don't get too close to me" etc)

i think cain's forgiveness is needed in that aspect. mainly because owen doesn't even mean to hurt him on the first place anymore,,, i won't reject cain's "unconditional forgiveness" because i know owen would never do anything unforgivable/impossible to fix to cain nowadays

of course there are things i wish cain yelled at man. but first, some healing is needed

he isn't even doing anything wrong lately his mouth is just really mean and all Significant damage is inflicted by kizu owen (if you want to take this as owen fighting to get into terms +

+ with his "trauma" (kizuowen) in order to heal a bit and reassure safeness to himself and those he loves, you'll cry

I JUST THINK??? OWEN'S LOVE IS HEALTHY LIKE THE DUDE IS AWARE he's not trying to deny it he's trying to protect cain he genuinely cares about him and helps him when he's in trouble and even gave him that nickname to make him remember how kind and strong he is ?!1?1!2?2!

so when i see someone saying owen has an obsession or that his affection is unhealthy i go Pale i am sorry ???? he is literally trying his best he is just really mean verbally BUT HIS INTENTIONS ARE SO CLEAR AND EXPLICIT

even cain knows how to deal with them like he literally joked with his own death as if nothing had happened, something that probably shocked owen to death in that moment, so of course owen would be like GRRRR *grips on a cushion with Love* or how he told him "i'll see you pray +

+ for me then" when he literally threatened him like PLEASE HE FLIRTS WITH OWEN SO HARD HE GIVES NO SHITS ALREADY

owen: *being a stupid shit*
cain: *flirts*
owen: *immediately stops working*
chloe: what did you do
cain: restart the system