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A thread. Here goes... this is the face of years of domestic abuse and coercive control.
I took this on Christmas Day when he last threatened to turn up at my house. The smile doesnāt meet the eyes but I desperately wanted to keep up with the world, be insta ready or whatevs...
I took this on Christmas Day when he last threatened to turn up at my house. The smile doesnāt meet the eyes but I desperately wanted to keep up with the world, be insta ready or whatevs...
Iām terrified to type all of this but it is important for others not just me. Things got worse when I left him. Iāve had countless interventions from police, courts, charities and it has consumed my life for years. He flares up on birthdays and christmases and I dread them...
Every job Iāve done has been with me having to fight this on the side. The day I auditioned for Sick Note id been giving a police statement. The day I filmed it, playing a police officer ironically, I remember telling lovely Nick Frost on set about how scared for my life I was...
Every time I try and get somewhere with my acting, streaming, whatever, itās like heās watching, waiting to ruin it again. Iāve been to Court three times during this worldwide pandemic alone... and Iām so tired and angry. I know this isnāt the place but I just wanted to explain
Why Iām sometimes distracted or flaky. Believe me, I am ambitious as hell and every time he does something to me again I have to go back to square one. But if COVID has taught me nothing else, itās that I am a fighter. I take my inspiration from @Natsc2012 @C_Kneer @OfficialMelB
And the wonderful team at @womensaid and other voices on here such as @NataliePage31 and @vicderbyshire. Iām embarrassed and ashamed still to come out and say all this. I want to work, date, socialise in the future and I donāt want to be seen as āthat DV survivorā but I am...
I canāt talk about what he has done on here as itās not safe but if I can give any advice to anyone in a similar situation, it would be to document every single incident, phone call, text, email and honestly, my hands are shaking as they I type all of this...
...but itās been too long now and I want to go back to being Alexis. I deserve that. I will stream again in a couple of days. Just need to curl up for a bit after this vulnerability hangover. Thanks for all your support. Iāve been overwhelmed. Love, Alexis x
