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Without realising it I often overdo things, which results in triumph or disaster, sometimes both.
Here are some personal, autistic reflections on a lifetime spent âoverdoing itâ.
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Without realising it I often overdo things, which results in triumph or disaster, sometimes both.
Here are some personal, autistic reflections on a lifetime spent âoverdoing itâ.
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#autism
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The first time I remember overdoing it was revising for my first year exams at secondary school.
Iâd been given a free place, and I was so intent on doing well that I was bent over my books for hours at a time.
As a result I injured my back and ended up missing the exams.
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Iâd been given a free place, and I was so intent on doing well that I was bent over my books for hours at a time.
As a result I injured my back and ended up missing the exams.
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This tendency to overwork, sometimes with disastrous consequences, has stayed with me for the rest of my life.
Iâm not sure if the fear of doing badly, or the desire to legitimate my place in the world is the stronger factor.
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Iâm not sure if the fear of doing badly, or the desire to legitimate my place in the world is the stronger factor.
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Overworking has a positive side too of course. I set about revising for my university final exams with forensic zeal.
I analysed all the questions that had been asked in the previous few years and made some tentative predictions about what might come up.
I got a first.
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I analysed all the questions that had been asked in the previous few years and made some tentative predictions about what might come up.
I got a first.
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I was unknown to most of the student cohort as we scanned our results, so I heard them speculating.
âWhoâs the girl who got the firstâ
âThe one who never speaks but is always smilingâ
âNo bloody wonder!â
This was benign, but âoverdoing thingsâ sometimes made me unpopular.
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âWhoâs the girl who got the firstâ
âThe one who never speaks but is always smilingâ
âNo bloody wonder!â
This was benign, but âoverdoing thingsâ sometimes made me unpopular.
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Thereâs an unwritten rule in many work settings that you should keep pace with your colleagues and avoid over performing.
I sometimes find it difficult to hold myself back. This isnât driven by competitiveness, but by my desire to realise my potential and do a good job.
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I sometimes find it difficult to hold myself back. This isnât driven by competitiveness, but by my desire to realise my potential and do a good job.
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Maybe this is why I found academia liberating, the pursuit of personal excellence was allowed.
It was a slippery slope though. The high of focusing intensely on research and teaching was addictive. Sometimes I didnât know when to stop.
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It was a slippery slope though. The high of focusing intensely on research and teaching was addictive. Sometimes I didnât know when to stop.
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