@JoeBiden @KamalaHarris @VP @POTUS I am just now seeing the massive scope of horror I have been living through because it was too frightening to fully absorb, I think I compartmentalized, was brave/stupid enough to believe “an adult in the room” would save US

So I could function, survive in my life. Had you not won This election, had the insurrection succeeded, or Russia hacked or US mail had folded, if you had not been elected I don’t know if I could have survived 4 more years. I am behind you! You have my everything.

Yet at this very moment I am (I think because it’s finally safe enough to do so ) suddenly falling apart. I am afraid of many of the GOP leaders, police officers... #Trump was an actual monster to me.

And many GOP leaders did not care or acknowledge we were dying alone of #covid, they made fun of US for wearing masks to protect ourselves, loved ones. George Floyd being suffocated while calling out for his mom,
children in literal cages screaming for their mom,,

forced hysterectomies, largest case of sex trafficking, child rape via witness, criminal #Epstein dying in jail before anyone was held accountable for all the children raped, abused & Brett #Kavanaugh appointed to the Supreme Court after Dr. Cristine Blasey Ford told her painful

account of being sexually assaulted, humiliated by him & then she was humiliated again by the GOP, the devastating wild fires & hurricanes & the silence the cruel #GOP silence. Or the cruel lies, words they threw at those unable to stand up because they were broken.

And watching the violent murderous attack on our Capital filled with nazis... It’s gonna take me (I don’t know what the remedy is) but as of right now I am wrecked, in shock, I need the monsters/ abusive leaders to be held #accountable

I don’t want to hear their voices, see them smiling. I have a physical stomach nauseous reaction and I violently throw up.

Exactly like I did when I suffered abuse as a child, my then grownups choose to sweep my physical abuse under the carpet because it was too much too painful too horrific to acknowledge, to face my reality.

I continue to be haunted, hurt by that kind of #silence. I know we have WAY bigger causes, issues than me, my current mental state, covid 19, BLM, hunger, the planet. & I know that I being white am not used to injustice, lying, being laughed at, seeing on tv the murder of

black lives by those paid to protect US. And the awful silence from our Elected paid leaders. It may be that my privileged white box was too easily shattered. My apologies for not being stronger.

I hold you both so tight in my prayers, that you will be able to lead US out of this darkness. I stand with you.

Tagged: @SenateDems @AOC @RepAdamSchiff @GavinNewsom because U r beacons of needed light for me & I added U @MittRomney because I believe u can shine brighter.

@tedlieu a bright bright light - thank you.