when xiao zhan does photoshoots, he doesn’t ever request that they photoshop his face, but asks that they hide the scars on his wrist and hand from when he got hurt, he’ll hide it in public and say it’s nothing if you ask him

when he filmed jade dynasty he wore rags in -20 degree weather got dunked in icy water repeatedly and ended up with frostbite and little scars all over his hands that fans never even noticed because he hides it so well

when he filmed douluo continent, once antis noticed he took time off filming and attacked him for being unprofessional, but actually he got really sick and could barely walk properly but still insisted on working and only took half a day off.

and when he had a noticeable cut on his hand, at the airport he hid it the whole time so that fans wouldn’t see

when filming cql during the xuanwu cave part where he gets submerged in water he was running a fever and it was also when the drama was getting a lot of heat online. so he posted this video of himself smiling brightly with the caption, be good guys!

when he got into dispute with his company, in early 2019 his schedules were getting cancelled after being confirmed and fans were really upset, so he posted this picture of a girl with an umbrella under a rock.

石雨 rock rain
时雨 momentary rain

when that legal dispute was going on and it was a very scary, uncertain time in his career when he didn’t know what was going to happen, all he posted was a bright streetlight with the caption, “don’t look back, forever ”

and most recently, as fans got anxious and restless waiting for his appearance in the iqiyi event, he posted this meme that says “just woke up” and captioned “a new day! full of energy!” giving us a pat on the head when he actually was just practicing backstage the whole time

in 2020, he didn’t talk about how he felt or what he went through, each time he appeared it was with a smile on his face. it was only late in the year when we found out that he told the playwright he interviewed that he had been struggling.

all of this we never find out from xiao zhan himself, but later from others.

it’s not because he’s so strong that he doesn’t get angry or hurt, he just chooses to self-regulate, keep it to himself, and spread positivity. that’s who he has always been.

xiao zhan is someone who does 100% of what he says and says 1% of what he does, he’s someone who holds out an umbrella for us in times that are harder for him than for anyone else. but we can always be here to support him. 给你我最大的偏心