I want to go to a fucking coffee shop and read a goddamn book while listening to the ambient sounds of folk music and gentle conversation, occasionally glancing up to people watch.
I want to walk down a crowded New York sidewalk and step into a bookstore and browse leisurely for approximately two and a half hours.
I want to go to a concert and scream-sing until I'm hoarse.
I want to go to a film festival and wait in long lines for tickets to movies no one's heard of before and overpay for snacks and cry in the dark with seventy-five strangers.
I want to go to an art museum and stay until I'm overstimulated and my feet ache, then take an advil and lay down to stare at the sky in the park afterwards.
I want to feel the excitement of seeing my order come out of the kitchen, the waitress making her way to my table & placing the thing I've been looking forward to eating all day in front of me. I want to look across the table & see a friend experiencing the same joy.
I miss our collective existences. I want to hear applause.