You know, I’m really glad I didn’t start drinking alcohol until I was around 30.

Not because I’m 38 and I’ve never had a real hangover—though I’m amused how much of a mindfuck that can be to some ppl. :P

But I honestly think I could have gotten addicted if I’d started younger.
When I didn’t drink at all, people who did would often demand to know why.

I’d typically tell them that I couldn’t stand the taste of alcohol, which was largely—but not entirely—true.

If they got pushy, I’d tell them about a childhood trauma I experienced due to drunk adults.
But the core reason I never drank was because I had terrible social anxiety. And I was terrified that alcohol would act as a “social lubricant” for me, and make it feel easier to relax around other people. Because I was terrified I would end up abusing alcohol to feel that way.
Having experienced getting drunk in social situations as a 30+ adult, with my more experienced partner there to support me, I now know for sure that I do feel more relaxed around other people when I’m drunk.

I’m quite sure I would have found that feeling addictive in the past.
People in anglophone countries so often call fear a “negative” or “bad” emotion.

I think healthy fear has sometimes saved me from doing things I was afraid I’d regret.
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