youtube has put a LOT on my shoulders, i don't go a single day without thinking about my last upload being months ago. i really hope that when i come back my channel doesn't fall, i'm losing motivation

when i was uploading daily, i was biting more than i could chew. i'm trying to look for a formula that helps me upload faster but i'm also waiting for some new roblox game to rise so that when i come back i come back with a bang

i wish my audience understood that i had a terrible formula for video making when i was doing daily uploads and i felt lonely because i had to concentrate on my video.

i always feel guilty because i have to ghost people just to work on a video

so i'm always sitting here like "i should probably edit something" but then i realize that there are no new and fun games that'll revive my channel and i have to wait for an opportunity.

i love editing, it's my passion and it's arguably one of my best talents. but when my audience is counting on me uploading videos about a platform that i'm really losing interest in, you can see why editing is getting boring.

so, if i want to continue with youtube, i gotta find a formula that works well and quickly. i've already started practicing a new formula but i never have the motivation to actually use it.

friends like epa, tina, trelakor and everyone from my friend group really give me more motivation to edit because well, i'm editing a video that i had fun recording and i don't feel lonely or anything. i had many video ideas that i attempted to edit but i only ended up editing gr

oup videos. both recorded group videos were either too loud or gonna be too long. we had a mount everest video planned but then it was scrapped because the footage was too long for me to edit.

this is where i need my audience's help

should i:

- attempt to upload anything, ignore the fact that it might flop

- keep waiting for an opportunity

- other (reply)

maybe the end of this lengthy thread, just wanted to put that out there because some of my audience really thinks i'm a machine that creates hd videos in 2 picoseconds (no offense)