One day I was so heartbroken after a breakup years ago...

I felt worthless. I had to question my existence lmao... Cried in front of the mirror . I craved for her love, nobody else.

Later that evening, I asked 5 friends out. They all said YES

Then she called to apologise

I was so confused and didn't know what to do...

I didn't send the IV to my life out of a sane mind. I really cared about those friends, like deeply.
I knew they liked me and wanted something with me.

I just said it anyhow and somehow I got positive replies.

I was never satisfied even at that. Like I got myself 5 relationships with some of the best people in my life in less than a week after my breakup.

To make matters worse, the person whose love I craved for just said she was sorry and she wasn't going anywhere.

However the conversation that led to the breakup was quite serious and it seemed there was no way we would resolve our issues, but alas that was a 2 weeks break.

How I dealt with it? I don't even know.
I ghosted on all, then later I came back with excuses because my heart could

only find peace with the one I craved for.

When I was back to the conversation, I acted indifferent like nothing happened, but one didn't care if I ghosted her the whole year. She was in for everything.

That was a complex situation I had to deal with because ermmm, I don't like

people I care about getting hurt...

I didn't mean to, it was almost like I didn't know when I sent out those messages but then I had to put a pause to clear the air

I felt it was going to be wrong to tell her exactly what happened, but I had to in a way.

Best thing I did was to give her a soft landing. It took a while to be honest.
It wasn't easy. It was much later that I wished I didn't have to put an end to that budding love because she is a beautiful soul. (when the breakup happened permanently of course)

Sometimes you never truly know. There's no formula to some situations in life. You just handle them the best way you can...

However, try as much as possible not to be mean or not to hurt someone that truly care.

I did all of these without my partner knowing anything

I cared so much about her opinions and I guarded jealously what we had.

As for the other lady, I had to find a way to ensure she was okay and gets that soft landing in a way she wouldn't be hurt.

Well she got her soft landing and moved on. W

Well, after she moved on, ermmm things didn't really work out for me and le boo the boo.

So I was alone laslas... Eh I didn't feel worthless again after the final breakup but then I had learnt my lesson. There's so much love I had that someone needs.

I worked on being good friends with those ladies and yeah we got back to being good friends and somehow the interest didn't die, but the fear of starting what I cannot finish made me to rest my case...

I'm even scared to hurt someone and I don't want anyone hurting me either

I couldn't even forgive myself for a long time for awakening the love of 5 beautiful souls... Like it was a one day message oooo. I just sent it that day and went to bed while drowning in my tears and feeling worthless and empty because I thought my essence was in her love

Well, ever since then, I decided to only say what I can do.

I'd rather run away than start what I cannot finish.

Also I hate breakups... I hate it! I hate it!

I hate breakups now, today, tomorrow and forever and ever

I'm a fan of working things out with a reasonable person who's ready to work things out though.

I'm not saying you should die in any relationship that's not working out o... Like run! Run for thy salvation

I'd rather to FWB instead of being in a committed relationship

that's destined to fail, but then we can't tell the future at times... Maybe sometimes you know.

Anyways I've never done the FWB thing. I almost did
I felt it was going to be fun, but errrm I still have the fear of the Lord plissss

I feel the day I'd be ready to get married, I might just call someone's daughter and say " hey boo, I was thinking we should do something crazy for the first time, let's get married". Lmao! We'd fix a date and that's it. No long talk because I'm tired bruh

I'm a loyal person ooo who knows how to be addicted to one person.

I have expectations too when it comes to beauty and material things, but once I find love, I forget every other thing lmao, but then I know you can have it all.

There's no moral lesson here. Just do your thing

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