Wowwww. By @a_h_reaume:

"To hope as a disabled person is to always already know that your hope is likely to be in vain since ableism or infrastructures or systems or norms were designed to obstruct you."

http://open-book.ca/Columnists/I-Wrote-100-000-Words-in-a-Month-Or-When-Productivity-is-Really-Crip-Grief

#CripGrief #CripBodies #CripLit #OwnVoices

"To hope as a disabled person is to know in advance that you will be exhausted by it. That you will need to recover from it. That it will have a price.

So, how do disabled people keep desiring through all that which obliterates and fractures our desire?"

"We do it in short bursts. We pace ourselves. We do it knowing that we will pay for it later. Or we don’t do it at all. We cannot do it. We run out of resources with which to do it."

"There is a way in which disabled people are aware always of the materiality of hope. Of how hope sits within and weighs upon the body. A way that we know that hope is an ‘activity of daily living’ that we are not always able to accomplish."

"I only want to be in community with people who are also still here despite knowing that they might never get the things they yearn for but who still yearn for them and work for them when they find the energy to."

"I only want to write things that help us hold all of this aching and all of this uncertainty so we can try together and fail together and try again together to build better lives and worlds and stories within the hurt."