TW: psychological fuckery in regards to memory suppression

An extra element of psychological torture in the chapter today... SH wants to control how NK remembers their encounter. Because When was the last time SH reminded NK that he needed to remember an expression to paint?

After the first rape. Not only is SH putting NK in his "place" here, there's an element of psychological fuckery with SH making NK paint aspects of their encounters which are uncomfortable for him. NK has to remember them to commit them to a painting and immortalize them

SH doesn't even care about the painting (i.e. the panel immediately after). It's more about ensuring NK doesn't forget it - and memory suppression is a healthy way to cope with trauma.

@lux_beatrice put it best: SH wants to forget his own trauma, but wants others to remember

Side note: I wonder what SH does with the paintings? Does he lock them away? Keep them out in the open? Does he look at them at all? Or is this another method of controlling NK - the fact that he carries physical reminders of their encounters?

SH acts like he has the ability to control how others feel - e.g. telling Jihwa to not have feelings for him, as opposed to saying that he himself can't reciprocate.

It's an element of his character, that I'm not sure if we'll see change.