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This Ted talk describes shame as the fear of disconnection.
“Is there something about me, that if people know it or see it, that I won’t be worthy of connection?”
“Is there something about me, that if people know it or see it, that I won’t be worthy of connection?”
To be honest I’ve been living with a lot of shame. I’ve disconnected myself from so many people because I felt unaccomplished. I don’t make effort to see my old friends/colleagues as much because while I went to study full time, they stayed at work. Some did both.
Years later all the women I knew as girls looked noticeably monied and good. Nails and hair always done. More of them were driving now. While I was still a student, broke, plain with no car -still living in my mamma’s house.
To put it plainly, I was in awe. My friends and people I knew had all undergone a growth of some sort. I was super proud of them but felt very critical of myself because I went through a different kind of growth. One that couldn’t be measured by possessions and responsibility.
My physical health brought me shame as well. Which ultimately led to the deterioration of my mental well-being. Constant fatigue from the anaemia and migraine attacks were a norm. But one week after recovering from Covid I developed appendicitis.
I had an emergency operation which went really well. I recovered fast despite not being able to walk at all on the first day. I was doing better physically but mentally I was calculating how much it cost to keep me alive and if it was worth it. The hospital bill was steeeep.
Okay back to the Ted Talk, Brené speaks on the courage to be imperfect and the compassion to be kind to oneself. I believe one of the reasons I have always garnered attention on social media was because of my ability to show up as my true self. I didn’t care that I was different
Or liked things other people didn’t like cause I liked what I liked & that was okay. This thread is more for myself than anyone even though I’m posting it on a public platform. But I’d like to say showing up as yourself even different is never a bad thing. There is value in that.
While I’m learning with professional help how to be kinder to myself (more details to follow if I ever feel like spilling my guts again
..). I just want to say that I’m happy and grateful to be here. Merry Christmas to you and yours
..). I just want to say that I’m happy and grateful to be here. Merry Christmas to you and yours
