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In other news, I've mostly resolved that weird OCD I had over my sexuality. A long time ago, I ripped off this study I read. Where they presented a slideshow of naked men and women, then used eye tracking software to measure the participant's sexual orientation.
I made the slideshow, but couldn't get the software to work. So I was really bummed out after that. But then I realized. There's an obvious, easy way to solve this problem.
Which is just, keeping a log of every time you get an erection or an orgasm.
Now, women don't really get erections. But we kind of do. There is some erectile tissue in female genitals. You get stiff down there when something really turns you on.
Now, women don't really get erections. But we kind of do. There is some erectile tissue in female genitals. You get stiff down there when something really turns you on.
...Either that, or I'm just some sort of freak. It worked for me, at least.
There are some flaws with this process. In my opinion, erections are one of the best things to measure. Since it's so autonomic. At least, I can't turn that on or off at will.
There are some flaws with this process. In my opinion, erections are one of the best things to measure. Since it's so autonomic. At least, I can't turn that on or off at will.
But then, it can miss secondary attraction. It's really best for measuring primary attraction.
Orgasm is good too. But I think you might have more control over that, instead of erections. So I wonder if subconscious bias can effect the result.
Orgasm is good too. But I think you might have more control over that, instead of erections. So I wonder if subconscious bias can effect the result.
But so far, the result for erection and orgasm for myself has been quite concordant. The graphs are damn near the same.
So this confirms a few things I had been wondering about myself:
1. I'm definitely "androgynomorphophilic". My sexual drive is almost evenly split between ordinary women and "androgynomorphs" (men with vaginas)
1. I'm definitely "androgynomorphophilic". My sexual drive is almost evenly split between ordinary women and "androgynomorphs" (men with vaginas)
2. There's a clear preference for women over men, but secondary attraction to men. Indeed, there was 1 instance of a spontaneous "erection" toward an unambiguous, fully intact man. Which is represented by the green slice of that chart.
What is interesting is that the man was very feminine, and was cross-dressing. A femboy. Very few masculine features, except that he was male.
Also, that day I was really horny for some reason. I had 4 of these "erections" in one day, which is not normal for me.
Also, that day I was really horny for some reason. I had 4 of these "erections" in one day, which is not normal for me.
There is also a green slice on the orgasm chart. This describes 3 instances. All involved combination of these femboys and ordinary women. So I'm not sure which one I was attracted to.
In any case, the two findings confirm a secondary attraction to men. I guess, really really feminine men.
Which... I guess it doesn't explain a lot. But it explains a little.
Which... I guess it doesn't explain a lot. But it explains a little.
Hopefully I get the visual tracking software working. Then I could compare that result to this log I've been keeping.
It's real easy to set up the log. You can make it in Sheets like this:
It's real easy to set up the log. You can make it in Sheets like this:
