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With all of this OnlyFans talk I think I want to address something before the end of the year, that way I've at least aired it publicly so it cannot be said later I've intentionally remained silent.
I want to share a piece of me, but then let it drop naturally
I want to share a piece of me, but then let it drop naturally
Earlier this year someone I thought I could trust on multiple levels brought up my past as a point against me, as how I speak and my experiences weren't to be trusted based on that I might have a mentally damaged lens
It's something that I've gotten before, and I'm sure I'll see again-the idea that a woman engaged in sex work at some point in her life seems to be a society qualifier that her word, her life afterwards and her judgment, means less
When I was 18 I stripped. I did this for 6 years, until 2007. I have spoken about this to a few of my friends. I was with Chris the entire time. He was there to pick me up so I didn't walk out to my car alone every night and he's with me still. This was over 10 yrs ago
I haven't brought it up in any social media platform because I understand that stigma. I am going to continue on with my life after this post.
This year made us all realize a lot of things.
For me, I realized that keeping silent about something seems like I'm ashamed or afraid
This year made us all realize a lot of things.
For me, I realized that keeping silent about something seems like I'm ashamed or afraid
And I am not going to let the choices I made as a very young adult ever be used as an attack against me ever again. I learned that even very liberal minded people can be condescending toward sex work. The OF nurse article recently by a leftist publication shows that
I don't talk about it because I want people to see the Jenn that loves books and fantasy. I think about that stuff every day. I do not wake up and think about my dancing days. If I do there are lots of feelings but I don't regret what I did.
I learned what I thought was a lot. But honestly those days circa early 2000s dancing full nude in Daytona Beach during Spring Break and the Daytona 500 where the laws and times were different was a blur. It was total insanity. Nothing exists in FL like that now.
I found a customer who wanted to pay for my education, and travel with him. I left that Industry based on what I learned from an older rich white man.
With a family. A wife. Kids. A distinguished career.
He was a model citizen and a "good" guy who wanted to be a family man
With a family. A wife. Kids. A distinguished career.
He was a model citizen and a "good" guy who wanted to be a family man
And that was something I saw regularly with the people who came in the club. I do not and will not speak about individual experiences-if I speak up, it's for a reason. Yes those experiences stay with me. I learned from them, there were hard memories
I carry memories and experiences but I've had to do a lot of work to NOT judge men based on the things I've LIVED. The things I've SEEN. I want to be left alone for the most part, and I coped with my environment the way I still do-with books and fantasy.
I will say this. The only time my dancing days is a factor in the life I actively have led since is during those rare times when I meet a man who is a family man, loves their partner, is well established and trusted, and then turn toward me and insinuate something in the dark
Fortunately, that kind of stuff doesn't happen often. I have learned that the people who come to the places I used to work at CHOOSE to be there, and the people I meet on the street weren't the people who groped and leered. I had a supportive partner who helped me through that
If a girl has an OF or does sex work of any sort, please don't treat her brain as if it's damaged. She's still deserving of a job by employers later. She's still deserving of love. She can still differentiate right from wrong. She isn't hurting anyone.
Thank you all for reading this. I cannot believe that what I did 10 yrs ago would ever be something I'd have to address in this year of Our Lord 2020, but maybe it's better this way being out. It's here, it's out, it's done, I've addressed it and no one can use it against me
I want to keep creating more fantasy stuff and continue to be the Jenn I CHOOSE to be. I could be leaving a VERY different life now. A more comfortable life, but I chose Chris and a quiet life of books. I left that all behind years ago. I'm happy with that decision.
