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this is probably the only time I'm putting a warning on something cause this is a very serious topic
I'm joining in on this and say a very similar thing happened to me back in 2019, when I was first discovering my sexuality, and I just kept quiet. https://twitter.com/JRabesDos/status/1338563557894594565
I'm joining in on this and say a very similar thing happened to me back in 2019, when I was first discovering my sexuality, and I just kept quiet. https://twitter.com/JRabesDos/status/1338563557894594565
I kept quiet to mainly give the person who did this to me a second chance, but even though he broke every chance he had, I still kept quiet. I don't know if it was from the manipulative hold he had on me, but I only told my close friends and no one else for a long time.
but hearing about this, I might as well come out and talk about my experience with one of the greatest manipulators I've ever met, dcsm.
the man used me as an quick fix for his mood after getting kicked from his original friend group for doing creepy shit, he knew I was already dealing with some pain from a previous friendship, and so, he hooked me into a relationship.
The relationship seemed good at first, but got worse overtime. He would reference overly sexual things about me, in vcs, to my friends, and even though I didn't like it, he had a hold on me. I couldn't say no, or tell him to stop, cause I was scared I would ruin his mood again.
The one time I did say no, his mood dropped, and stayed at a low for a while before I caved in and his mood suddenly jumped up again. This is where his power over me came from, and I just let him have it. This was my worst mistake.
This all amalgamated until before twitchcon, in which I told him I couldn't handle it anymore, and decided to leave the relationship. After that, he texted my closest friends at the time, and told him to treat me well, even though I was never intending to go with him at the time.
I tried to talk to him, I tried to make sure he was ok, but he just never responded to anything I sent him. He told my friends that he was hurting himself, but never said anything to me until I was basically on my knees, crying for him to come back and be mine.
After that, he just acted like nothing happened. He joined back everything and was just, normal. I never understood how a man could just do that, but he did. Plus I wasn't thinking too much about that, as Twitchcon was on its way anyways, And I was going to see him, in person.
Twitchcon was great, it was an amazing time with lots of amazing people, but through out all that fun time, comes the bad part. During the time, he took me to his hotel room, and as someone who couldn't say no to him, I followed him, like a sheep going to the slaughterhouse.
I'm not going into detail what happened in there, it wasn't much, but I'm not comfortable speaking about it publicly, the only thing I want to say is that he knew I was uncomfortable with it, I TOLD him I was uncomfortable with this, and he pressed on.
And I know he knew, cause he texted me later telling me that he was frustrated at me and that I "Should break out of my comfort zone more often". Ya know, saying that after pulling that shit on me, kinda yikes dude.
Our relationship didn't last that long after, we broke up in October, and after we left each other, that's only when I realized what really happened. That's when I started dealing with serious mental issues and trauma from these events. They still hurt, over one year later.
One of the worst parts about this? I never got "Sorry for what happened". The closest thing to this was when he wrote a song about how things are looking up for him. That's it.
There is a lot more shit I could say about this man, but they aren't my experiences, so I'll let the people who actually dealt with them tell their story. I'm only speaking from what happened to me.
I don't care what you do with this information, it doesn't matter to me. If you read this and still support him? Sure, I don't care. It's not my job to control you. But if anything, don't go out of your way to harass him. This is a request from me, and please respect it.
If your skeptical about any part of this, I can understand that, just know that I am retelling this story for nothing but to get it off my chest. There's no reason for me to lie. If you want further proof, send me a message and I can accommodate.
That is my story, learn something from it, and don't make the same mistakes I did.
