OK, I’m going to rant for a bit and it’s going to get a little woo at times. Mute me for a day if you don’t want to follow along.

Last week I had a hypnotherapy session in which we uncovered what could be termed a “classic abduction.” Gray aliens, telepathic mantis, etc. 1/

I spent several days trying to persuade myself that it wasn’t true. That somehow I’d confabulated not only the memory, but the feelings of terror that went along with it. As I examined it, that got harder because pretty much all of the external evidence supported it. 2/

If you look at surveys from abductees (of which there are many), they frequently report similar things. I scored very highly on those surveys. My sister, who appeared in my regression, has now started confirming some of the minor details that surround these events. 3/

I say “events” because it seems apparent that it has happened many times, I believe up through my early teens.
Some additional evidence that may support it is medical, including two objects that have appeared on MRI which are curiously placed and doctors have misidentified. 4/

One was in my spinal cord. It later disappeared entirely on subsequent MRIs. The other is in my brain, and thankfully hasn’t changed in years (although that has the doctors scratching their heads). They’re not evidence; but they’re odd. They’re also not my only issues.
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I’ve got so much weird medical stuff that my doctor finally told me no one in my state is going to be able to help me and I need to go to the Mayo Clinic. It’s interesting that some of my issues (such as fibromyalgia) are also frequently reported by other abductees. 6/

Yesterday I was listening to a recent interview with Chris Bledsoe in which he acknowledged that he has rheumatoid arthritis that “experts” tell him they believe is due to his contact with the orbs. I’m left to wonder whether my abductions have also caused my medical issues. 7/

This is all a giant mindfuck. I don’t want any of this. My life has been taken over trying to figure out what’s been going on—not just my physical and mental health issues, but the “psi” stuff that started at the beginning of this year. All which I can document or corroborate. 8/

In my hypnosis I indicated that I was being “prepared” for something which hadn’t happened yet. What the fuck am I supposed to do with this information? Now I’m feeling the need to keep a dream journal because two of my dreams have come true in two months. 9/

I DON’T WANT ANY OF THIS TO BE HAPPENING. My life was hard enough as it is. I can’t work, my health and trauma issues caused a divorce, I’m in constant pain all the time, and now I have to talk with my therapist about how I’m diagnosing stranger’s health issues via Twitter? 10/

Anyone who says they wish they’d get abducted by aliens has no idea how much fucking stress this causes. I can’t stop thinking about it, and that’s been true for literally three years before I EVEN KNEW WHY. Which, again, is apparently common. I’m a poster child. 11/

I just want things to be normal again, even as difficult as they already were. I want to tell everyone what happened, and also never talk about it again. I want weird shit to stop happening because now I have to ask myself if everything is random or synchronistic. Fuck. 12/12