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I’m going to do my best to articulate how I’m feeling right now, which will probably come out very jumbled and confusing because I’m coming down from an extremely intense anxiety attack right now, so my adrenaline is way up.
I'm tempted to start this thread with “Sorry for earlier” but I’m learning not to apologize when I have moments of openness and vulnerability. Apologizing for your emotions is stupid. I shouldn’t be ashamed for having a full blown meltdown and crying in my shower for 30 minutes.
I’m tired. I’m mentally drained. This year has obviously been a lot for all of us, and I do in fact feel shitty saying that I’m exhausted from feeling like I’ve been The Person for things the last six months. That’s not something I should complain about.
I love what I do. I love it so much. And I’m horribly terrified of letting people down or just completely checking out because I start to feel overwhelmed. I’ve done that with so many things in my life, and I don’t want to keep doing that.
But I am tired. I probably can’t say that enough. I want an off button and I don’t have one. Most of us really don’t, even if we think we do. We could be logged off physically and we’re still logged on mentally. All of us.
I think what I really want is to just hit pause for the rest of this year. I want Marketing Twitter to power down from Hanukkah until New Year’s Day and for all of us to stop feeling like we need to be the most insightful person in the room every day when we’re all exhausted.
Just three glorious weeks without strategy talk or end-of-year recaps or mass tag tweets or lists of the same people over and over again or any of us feeling like we’re not enough if we’re not putting out a mind-blowing tweet about our professional life every day.
Because we’re all feeding off that energy whether we realize it or not. The sense of community is wonderful and I love everyone I’ve connected with this year, but I think we may be subconsciously overdoing it in order to feel better about this exhausting, horrible year.
I know that I’ve been absorbing that positive energy like a sponge, but my brain is just oversaturated now. It’s struggling to process a lot of it. It’s so overwhelmed with the good that I’ve been shoving the bad off to the side for weeks now.
So like, I don’t know. Pause your inspiration tweets and insightful questions until January, I guess? Can we all just…be for a few weeks? Let’s talk about breakfast or the ridiculous hobbies we have that have nothing to do with work or our pets.
Again, my brain is a mess right now. It’s vibrating on a whole different plane of existence at the moment. All I know is that I have one last presentation that I’m really looking forward to and then my brain is probably powering down for two weeks of absolutely nothing important.
You are all insanely fantastic people that I am lucky to know, but I’m really excited to not talk about important things for a few weeks with you.
I’m gonna go unschedule all of my personal tweets for the rest of the month now. And sleep.
I’m gonna go unschedule all of my personal tweets for the rest of the month now. And sleep.
Also, just so we’re clear, literally none of this was me subtweeting anyone. Because I’m sure some will think that I was.
I’m coming off of a panic attack that had me sobbing on the floor for 30 minutes. My brain can’t do petty right now, I promise.
I’m coming off of a panic attack that had me sobbing on the floor for 30 minutes. My brain can’t do petty right now, I promise.
