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I realized this sounded more negative than it is. I wanted off benzos for a reason. I'd like to share what I DON'T have anymore.. To start, I don't have OCD. I suffered for years, and it went away the first few weeks of my taper because I had tolerance misdiagnosed as #OCD)... https://twitter.com/atomicaceso/status/1335965398903218177
Secondly, I had suicidal ideation, deeply disturbing nihilism telling me to END MY LIFE for hours every single night. This went away a few weeks ago (
). Also I can sleep! I wasn't sleeping well, 4 hours or less? I still can't nap, but I usually sleep at least 6-7 hours a night.
). Also I can sleep! I wasn't sleeping well, 4 hours or less? I still can't nap, but I usually sleep at least 6-7 hours a night.
Other things that went away: agoraphobia, agitation, apathy, feeling like I need to pee every 2 seconds, depersonalization, derealization, hallucinations, nonstop twitching, heat intolerance has lessened, inability to walk, SEVERE brain fog (mild now), tingling/numb limbs, cysts
24/7 vertigo, feelings of falling backwards all day, living in a state of pure terror, making this weird noise I couldn't stop, involuntarily, my eyes blinking nearly 24/7, paranoia, racing thoughts, my rashes seem to have gone away, this feeling of my hair growing painfully..
I'm sure there's a lot more that I haven't thought about. I've been living with 100s of symptoms every single day since this started, so I've learned to live with them and don't realize at first that things are slowly fading away. I still have too many, but less. #PrescribedHarm
A few more: it doesn’t feel like I swallowed glass anymore, no more esophageal spasms, less sound sensitivity. There still so much to get rid of to function, but it’s not like nothing has improved. Only 1 thing has gotten worse since stopping: I keep developing new allergies.
Also: the floor is no longer rocking all day like I'm on a boat and my memory seems slightly improved. Others have told me that I am not typing incoherently as much anymore. Please make no mistake, everything is still awful and I cannot function normally. A little less TORTURE.
