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Last week started pretty good. I was stoked to be packing all the black Friday orders. I was thrilled to see my friends share their photos of all the things they were shipping out.
Then Thursday happened.
1/?
A thread
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Last week started pretty good. I was stoked to be packing all the black Friday orders. I was thrilled to see my friends share their photos of all the things they were shipping out.
Then Thursday happened.
1/?
CW: mental health
Thursday, in sitting in the middle of my office, surrounded by dice, and I can't find one thing to go in the order I'm packing.
I start to get frustrated because I have a *clear* visual memory of where it is.
I look, it's not there.
2/?
Thursday, in sitting in the middle of my office, surrounded by dice, and I can't find one thing to go in the order I'm packing.
I start to get frustrated because I have a *clear* visual memory of where it is.
I look, it's not there.
2/?
CW: mental health
Immediately I get overwhelmed by the absolute disaster that my office is. Then I get really frustrated with myself for not keeping it more organized. Then I get angry. At myself, at the chaos I've created, at my 'failure' to keep my office in workable order
3/?
Immediately I get overwhelmed by the absolute disaster that my office is. Then I get really frustrated with myself for not keeping it more organized. Then I get angry. At myself, at the chaos I've created, at my 'failure' to keep my office in workable order
3/?
CW: mental health
First, I cry. Hard. Then I start looking in all the 'logical' spots for this thing to be, with my *clear* memory of it being in a bag.
Can't find it. Cry some more. Scream.
Double & triple check to see if I just overlooked it.
Nope. Get angry. Again.
4/?
First, I cry. Hard. Then I start looking in all the 'logical' spots for this thing to be, with my *clear* memory of it being in a bag.
Can't find it. Cry some more. Scream.
Double & triple check to see if I just overlooked it.
Nope. Get angry. Again.
4/?
CW: mental health
At this point, I'm now vibrating & ready to destroy my office from top to bottom.
Then, I have a brief moment of clear thinking.
I check my stock numbers, realize there's only 1 of these items left.
I check where is supposed to be.
5/?
At this point, I'm now vibrating & ready to destroy my office from top to bottom.
Then, I have a brief moment of clear thinking.
I check my stock numbers, realize there's only 1 of these items left.
I check where is supposed to be.
5/?
CW: mental health
It's loose in the bag. Not the bag I had a *clear* visual memory of it being in, but the bag that that bag was supposed to be in.
Breathe. Cry. Breathe. Keep working.
Later that day I have my first psychologist appointment. Lots of rambling & discovery.
6/?
It's loose in the bag. Not the bag I had a *clear* visual memory of it being in, but the bag that that bag was supposed to be in.
Breathe. Cry. Breathe. Keep working.
Later that day I have my first psychologist appointment. Lots of rambling & discovery.
6/?
CW mental health
Day picks up a bit, but never gets to the high point it started at.
We're all going through shit right now. Doesn't matter whether or not you acknowledge or deny it.
It's been a tough year. And it's not easing up.
7/?
Day picks up a bit, but never gets to the high point it started at.
We're all going through shit right now. Doesn't matter whether or not you acknowledge or deny it.
It's been a tough year. And it's not easing up.
7/?
CW mental health
Give yourself some space to feel things that may otherwise be foreign to you.
Treat yourself with the same care, especially when it's hardest to, that you want for those you love.
These are things I've learned this year.
8/end
Give yourself some space to feel things that may otherwise be foreign to you.
Treat yourself with the same care, especially when it's hardest to, that you want for those you love.
These are things I've learned this year.
8/end
