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hello to everyone new who has followed me today. I wish we could have met under better circumstances for some of it! i'll do a brief little intro cause my online presence is not consistent.
I'm Morgan! I'm nonbinary, transmasc in a fluid way. I use they/them and/or he/him pronouns. I'm a narrative designer for video games, and I write through a disability and trans lens in most everything I create.
I have so many health conditions that I plan to at some point commission a calligrapher for a scroll that I can unfurl when doctors ask me about my medical history. I talk about these health conditions quite openly and generally don't mind answering questions. I'm also autistic!
I have A Fair Few mental health conditions bundled up with the physical ones because biology and reality decided to do a monster factory on startup and make sure I was a "no middle sliders" kind of human.
I don't tend to list them out much these days now my following number is so much larger and I'm increasingly attracting attention from terrible people just by existing. The main ones I will mention are C-PTSD and Borderline Personality Disorder.
I manage both of these pretty well, but I do get triggered sometimes, because comordbidity decided to just take up space around here I can occasionally end up in the thunderdome of combination meltdown-flashback-split.
This is fairly easy to identify. I tend to break out into all caps or short, fragmented sentences
LIKE THIS, OH MY GOD, WHAT THE FUCK
or u know i could really do without this right the hell now
etc.
I lay this out because I have a personal boundary I need to restate sometimes
LIKE THIS, OH MY GOD, WHAT THE FUCK
or u know i could really do without this right the hell now
etc.
I lay this out because I have a personal boundary I need to restate sometimes
If I am expressing distress in those typing patterns, please ask before you retweet a personal post, or one about a sensitivity topic, if you can. It means a lot to me, because I often write tweets with just my immediate follower circle in mind, which I vet pretty heavily.
When I stop making because I can't anymore, my anger usually gets a lot of post engagements. It is very disheartening when I can spend two hours writing a nuanced thread, but then someone rt's me at a vulnerable state and that anger-candor is what goes wild instead.
If you forget, that's okay! But I may sometimes request undoing an rt if there's a post I want to stay up but not travel out of my circles, and if I delete things I will usually explain why once I'm calmer. [reworded bc i misplaced words there]
Outside of that, I'm very politically engaged and active. I am happy to try and tag anything anyone needs for muted words lists in order to avoid causing any splash damage onto other marginalized people and/or anyone who has trauma triggers.
I informally study fascist communication networks and how they are communicating, and I keep track of the general state of politics in five different countries right now. Sometimes I'll label those specifically, but I'm prone to forgetting and it's okay to remind me!
(I have MAJOR, like, "put something down cannot remember where 10 second later" memory issues due to stress and a whole bunch of other things, I will likely forget some things, it is not because I don't care. Brain is over-saturated sponge.)
Politically, I am a baby abolitionist. I'm just starting to dip my toes into some formal theory, as I tend to learn best in things like twitter threads and infographics and books are hard these days when my job is words.
I'm a serial, life-long survivor of multiple kinds of abuse. I talk about this sometimes from an anti-abuse and anti-rape pov. Working to build space, even if mostly digital, where other survivors can breathe and relax for a bit is one of my big goals.
Born in England, lived there for roughly half my life, was moved to Australia, lived there on land belonging to the Darumbal people for about 10yrs, my best friend evacuated me from what would've been a lethal home situation & I now live in Aotearoa on Rangitāne o Manawatu land.
I'm a bedbound disabled person, and subsequently I Am Nearly Always Online, Sorry. Sometimes I don't sleep for >40 hours at a time because insomnia is hell.
uhhh what else is relevant to give people a heads up on. i often will do a thread about something i care about that i think will take me ten minutes and then i find out it's been over 2 hours. I liveblog media I like & make dedicated tags for that so you can mute those if needed.
I do kind of informal theory and document reading circles sometimes? These are not continuous and happen when I have the energy. I forget to archive threads. Currently I'm reading Tina Ngata's 'Kia Mau - Resisting Colonial Fictions' and Fanon's 'The Wretched of The Earth'.
there are very much things that are a "if you're here for them, you're absolutely 100% welcome to participate and share your thoughts on the material I'm sharing and what you think of my thoughts on it too" thing
One time I liveblogged a deep wikipedia dive on the physical history of the earth from its formation because it occurred to me I could just learn how old the moon was and iirc got up to the pre-cambian age before I got too tired. F to that massive thread, it was fun.
My core special interests are agriculture, its history and domestic history in general, clothing and textile history and creation, narrative design, and trying to take all the things I'm learning from disparate sources and streamline them into sourced digestible chunks.
This account is mostly SFW but I do prefer minors don't follow me. I have done online sex work and likely will again in the future, as my income is pretty massively below the poverty line, and I have medication bills to pay.
Plants, fish, and mushroom facts are my favourites and I love dispensing cursed botanical knowledge like how wheat is a fruit.
Other general interests: I read UN documentation for fun and study and sometimes liveblog important documents. This week I liveblogged a heritage sheep study from the UK, and a thread about toilet access in a hypothetical bronze age community.
I'm doing writing and narrative design for a game called Hope Sustains, which is going to be very queer, feature A Lot of disablity, and also Gender Things. It takes place on a floating island that was previously part of England roughly 11,000 years ago & has drifted up and out.
The island has been continuously inhabited since the bronze age and I'm designing it literally from the ground up with custom ecology, geography and culture that grows up out of the setting as it gets fleshed out. It's fun!
I think that's about it? AMA I guess!
RIGHT LAST NOTES this is important: I actively am studying the colonial history of the places England colonized so I can better understand how the white supremacist institutions got established, & so I can have context on the information I read from Black and Indigenous writers.
A lot of my audience is also white, and I share this information as I learn it to streamline the learning process there, but a fair chunk of it is not. I content warn with everything I can think of when I discuss and sit with this history and what it means, however-
If any of my followers who are not white ask for me to tag something or stop talking about it, I will immediately. I take care to specify when I am talking to other white people specifically about subjects related to white supremacy and colonialism.
The last thing I want to do is any splash damage, and I take the mental health of anyone who follows me seriously. 2020 is a hellish year on top of a hellish decade and it's bad enough without being unexpectedly triggered.
okay NOW questions / comments / concerns etc
