Read on Twitter
‘My heart is in the right place but here let me denigrate sex workers and people struggling with addiction in my justification’.
Skin in the game: former sex worker, recovering alcoholic, #actuallyautistic, former massive Sia fan.
Skin in the game: former sex worker, recovering alcoholic, #actuallyautistic, former massive Sia fan.
I haven’t tagged her because she has 3.8m followers and I’m too tired to deal with a bot pile on. As someone who has lost good work because people don’t take the time to understand neurodivergence nor make absolutely negligible adjustments, I’m really disappointed in this.
Too many examples to list but when my joints were playing up badly I lost a festival gig because I asked to stay at a nearby B&B (£40 and I offered to pay) instead of camping on the ground and was told I had to stay on site. I went, I had to leave early because I was in agony.
I recently heard through the grapevine that a producer I’ve worked with tells everyone I’m hard work’. I’m the most polite, obliging, happy person in a tv studio. I wear earplugs in the green room because the noise is a bit much, and like to have cue cards because, I’m autistic.
That was really hard to write but the next bit is harder.
The majority of the criticism about me on a certain gossip website is ableist bullshit. Yes I have a low attention span, I have ADHD. Yes I’m forgetful, ADHD. Lay in sometimes? ADHD. Socially awkward? Autistic.
The majority of the criticism about me on a certain gossip website is ableist bullshit. Yes I have a low attention span, I have ADHD. Yes I’m forgetful, ADHD. Lay in sometimes? ADHD. Socially awkward? Autistic.
Don’t always see things the way other people do? Autistic. Walk with a stick sometimes but fine other times? Arthritis. Unable to regulate emotional responses? Autistic/ADHD. Impulsive? ADHD. Bit blunt on twitter? Autistic. Chew my lips til they bleed? BFRB, which is part of ADHD
I could go on but I have work to do and this isn’t helping.
I’m really lucky to have Carole and Rosemary and Natalia on my team, who understand and adjust and hold me and give me space and basically treat me with respect and kindness. I’m not difficult, I do my own washing up on shoots, I try my best to fit in with how humans behave.
The Sia thing has triggered some wobbles so I’m just gonna find the cat and bury myself in his floof for a bit before getting back to work. Sorry for being an emotional, rejection-sensitive dysphoric impulsive overwhelmed mess. ADHD. 
PS I am robust enough & have had enough overwhelmingly brilliant feedback from people I’ve worked with to know that I’m not hard work etc. I’m just a strange peg in a machine of identikit round holes. W people make an effort to allow neurodiverse people to shine, we really do. 
