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Just so everyone knows, depression is different for everyone. Suicidal thoughts are different for everyone. You don't need to be going through something really hard to feel suicidal.
I have an extremely loving and supportive group of family/friends, along with everything I could need/want, and I still have suicidal thoughts EVERY DAY. Don't be down on yourself for feeling depressed when you have a good life, or think your life isn't bad enough to be suicidal.
Also understand that people who have suicidal thoughts aren't selfish. For me, these thoughts go like this: "I don't want to die, I just don't want to exist" and that is completely normal. Before judging someone that is suicidal/depressed, try to understand their mindset.
Life can feel unbearably repetitive for me. I feel as if I am disconnected from living, aware of life but not ACTUALLY experiencing it. I go through the motions, and it feels like a toxic relationship that I don't have the strength to get out of.
This doesn't mean I don't love or care about those around me. I deeply love my friends and family. I'm excited about my future career as an educator. I'm a happy dog mom. But I'm still depressed.
So, some advice for those who don't experience this: don't just tell them everything is okay and that everyone loves them. Don't play the God card. Don't say they are selfish. Don't ignore them or their struggles. It's hard. Listen. Be there for them. Love them, understand.
Depression feels like a deep hole for me, and when I dig my heels in and try to climb back up, the dirt gets loose and I only fall harder and deeper in. The weight gets heavier, and I lose hope; the drive to keep climbing. One thing that keeps me going to the fear of death.
This might be hard for some people to hear, including my family. But making sure other people are aware of my experience as well as other's experiences keeps people's minds open. Ask questions. Share your stories. This can bring hope and self-reflection to others.
So please, if you know someone or are someone who struggles, whether it feels really big or small, share it here. If you aren't comfortable with sharing here, please DM me, and I would LOVE to talk to you about it. I love all of you, and know I'm here and others are here for you.