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I've been slow on this app & some of you might've wondered why before the grand comeback.
I usually don't talk about my personal stories if they're not uplifting, but I thought sharing struggles might have healing effect.
My mom is diagnosed with cancer & went thru huge surgery+
I usually don't talk about my personal stories if they're not uplifting, but I thought sharing struggles might have healing effect.
My mom is diagnosed with cancer & went thru huge surgery+
My mom was so healthy and had never been sick except catching a cold before, so when she had full body check up, we never imagined this coming. The doctor called us in and said "I am so sorry to tell you this but the cancer has developed quite big & surgery is urgent"
When we heard that, it felt like the whole world was crumbling down. It came too soon, too unexpected. We lost words and couldn't come up with what to think at all. We made an appointment at the big hospital which was a week later and had to wait not knowing what would happen+
The first thing I felt when we found out her diagnosis was regrets. Regrets of thinking the everyday life would last forever. Regrets of taking the time with her for granted. Regrets of not fully being there for her. It was such a chaotic sad feeling at first+
During the week of waiting, mom wanted to travel around Korea, eat great food & take lots of photos, so we did. Everywhere we went, everything we did, everything we talked about, every moment was,so precious. We came to appreciate every little normal life as if it's everything+
We always forget how precious just being able to laugh, fight, cry, and just live. I cried and laughed so much with her during the week, and that time was so valuable & essential to come out of denial and accept the reality & face what to come+
After the week, she was submitted to the hospital to examine her body and I went with her. It took 5 days to check her body from head to toe one by one without food & water because it wasn't just one place.
The process was long and draining, but she was strong+
The process was long and draining, but she was strong+
Her attitude was not like "I will survive or get through", but it was more like "whatever may come, I will accept it gracefully".
She was so calm and peaceful, and it really gave everyone around her including me an inner peace.
Her smile and gentle voice assured us it was okay+
She was so calm and peaceful, and it really gave everyone around her including me an inner peace.
Her smile and gentle voice assured us it was okay+
And I came to be really thankful just being with her. Having the time to reevaluate the values and how happy we can be no matter what kind of situations we might be in.+
After the full examination, she immediately went through 8 hrs of surgery to remove big parts of organs. The time felt like forever.
I just couldn't do anything but helplessly wait. When she came out of the surgery and opened her eyes, she was so pale and I was in tears.
I just couldn't do anything but helplessly wait. When she came out of the surgery and opened her eyes, she was so pale and I was in tears.
After a day, the doctor said walking is necessary, but I thought it would be impossible after the big surgery. But she did. I held her waist and she started walking around the hallway slowly. Her recovery from the surgery was faster than others, but she still needs more+
She will start chemotherapy soon for 6 months, and I will be with her during the whole treatment.
She might or might not fully recover from cancer, but she taught me how to accept the reality & enjoy every moment as it is.
I am really grateful for this journey with her+
She might or might not fully recover from cancer, but she taught me how to accept the reality & enjoy every moment as it is.
I am really grateful for this journey with her+
She taught me it's okay to be honest with emotions, let them sink in, but not dwell on them. Appreciate yourself & people around you.
I realized being nice to others is not just for others, it's actually for myself. I know now that whatever happens, I won't be left with regrets+
I realized being nice to others is not just for others, it's actually for myself. I know now that whatever happens, I won't be left with regrets+
I am enjoying every moment with her. Breakfast, watching TV, saying goodnight, celebrating birthday, talking looking into her eyes.
Thank you for reading a long thread of my on-going little life.
I hope you are happy & enjoying the moments in any situation.
You're so precious
Thank you for reading a long thread of my on-going little life.
I hope you are happy & enjoying the moments in any situation.
You're so precious
