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I had fun scrutinizing DissociaDID's new video from both a logical and analytical standpoint. Time to ramble in autistic about what a mess that was.
First and foremost, there is the logical. She is of course deceiving her audience and disguising her self validation as encouragement. "This thing is okay and valid". But it seems like these are things she wants to hear and is telling herself.
To extend on this point, she says something along the lines of "And even when you're not in a good place, you can still make a difference," before patting herself on the back for and naming her achievements.
So I see this entire video as her speaking mostly to herself. Telling herself that it's okay, that it isn't her fault because everyone needs time. You know, the types of lies that help her sleep at night most likely.
What I can tell from this is that she's not only afraid to address the several elephants in the room that are her toxic actions, but she wishes to justify them and does not regret them. She puts those who have opposed her in a negative light, simply saying that she isn't perfect.
And no, nobody's perfect. And when all eyes are on you, folks are quicker to judge. However, she's shown no growth. She has not done anything but cast blame and sweep the allegations and proven harmful actions under the rug.
Secondly, there is her overall body language, tone, cues, and etcetera. Something I've mentioned before is that I've been getting the hang of analyzing these things because I cannot read people well without noting cues like these that hint at the psychological processes behind
what someone is saying or doing.
Finding a neutral baseline for Nin is damn near impossible because she is always performing. She has a tendency to laugh or smile in neutral situations and especially under stress. But her "performance" baseline is somewhat easy.
Finding a neutral baseline for Nin is damn near impossible because she is always performing. She has a tendency to laugh or smile in neutral situations and especially under stress. But her "performance" baseline is somewhat easy.
In this video, she smiles and uses hand gestures as she typically does, but also indicates that she may be uncertain, uncomfortable, and aware of her deceit.
When she discusses things like her break and how others will perceive you, you'll notice she begins to blink rapidly
When she discusses things like her break and how others will perceive you, you'll notice she begins to blink rapidly
which indicates doubt, deceit, anxiety, and/or uncertainty. She does preening gestures like sweeping her hair which indicates her wanting to maintain a nice and friendly appearance. During these parts, her eyes dart. Darting eyes does not always mean lying, but it may
indicate anxiety and wanting to disengage. We know that she is however lying, so it's likely that she is recalling the actual events that unfolded as she sugarcoats them and talks about how she needed a break and how everyone was so mean to her. :(
And she is also likely recalling her own narrative, additionally. Darting her eyes to the left often indicates internal dialogue. Which could be with herself or other alters who are uncomfortable in this situation.
It's interesting to me that while she does genuinely smile at some things, she smiles and laughs a lot when talking about stressful issues. In this video particularly when she speaks of covid and 2020 in general.
But similarly to her previous video, talking about her achievements is the only time we see what appears to be genuine happiness. Her voice speeds up and she smiles when she talks about raising money, which also happened when she talked about reaching a million subs.
After that, she's back to her performative baseline in which her smile is plastered on and seldom reaches her eyes.
She also does the self soothing gesture of fidgeting with her hair, something she does not typically do.
And near the end of the video you see another preening gesture as she discusses the future of her channel.
And near the end of the video you see another preening gesture as she discusses the future of her channel.
Body language analysis is not an exact science, but given the above analysis and details of the situation, I'm far from convinced that she gives a shit about how her actions affect others. I get the impression that she prioritizes her image over all else.
Especially when she makes the conversation about her viewers and their mental health about herself and her achievements. How she uses it as self validation, trying to say "People will always hate me and they're wrong" but instead saying "People will hate you and they're wrong".
This comes off as manipulative, and some of it may even be unintentional. She should not continue to call herself an advocate after everything. If she gave a shit, she'd realize that she's unfit to be an advocate or one of the most well known faces in the DID/OSDD community.
I'm irritated that she maintains her platform without real consequences. We try to spread the word that she's toxic but at the end of the day, she is still seen as an educated and authentic advocate. Even being a narcissist, her self serving actions disgust me. She's manipulative
as shit.
That is all.
That is all.
