Take it from me, fucking up is not the end of the world.
Beyond that, you’re not crazy for reacting differently when things don’t go your way.

It’s hard to makes sense of where you’re going wrong sometimes so just breathe.
I promise you the solutions you need are within, so be patient as you listen and don’t ignore the process.
And if you don’t deal with it, it’ll find it’s way back in your life one way or another.

It’s okay to get mad, talk your shit. Yell at the top of your lungs if you need to. Let all of that hurt go.
Then sit with yourself, and cycle back through what didn’t go right.
This could take a lot of time, so don’t rush it.

The biggest key, is to create a step by step process going forward so that you:

1. Know where to improve in future and

2. Don’t end up in an unnecessary cycle because again, if you don’t deal with it, it’ll find it’s way back in your life one way or another.