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I'm older than a lot of people who transition, and I only started a few months ago. I repressed/ was in "egg" stage for decades. Then I realized I was trans, and spent at least 2 more years completely in the closet. I felt like transitioning was completely out of reach. 1/7
I wasn't on ANY social media. My support network was my therapist (an hour every other week at that time) and my not-so-supportive wife. And my sister in law, who was really supportive at first, but I managed to drive her away (we're better now). 2/7
I thought about transition and got overwhelmed. Like, panic, spiraling into a really bad place, feeling like it was forever out of reach. Impossible, forbidden. My therapist saved my life. I should have told my wife how bad it was - but I still had so much internal transphobia.
So dysphoria! I deal with problems with lists. Break them down into easier pieces. I made a list, all the things I wished I could change, what I thought I needed for transitioning. Stream of consciousness. Then I made 2 columns, Impossible for now, and Achievable 4/7
I was honest with myself. And really surprised at how much I was able to put under Achievable. Then, of course, I assigned them numbers. Easy, hard, sooner, later. And focused on just 1 at a time. Some are easy to multitask once they're started (hair just grows) 5/7
One day at a time. Like recovery. I'd stopped drinking and smoking years earlier, and brought the same mindset to my transition. You're never a recovered alcoholic- you're always recovering. Same with transition. There's no end. It's the process, the journey. 6/7
It's scary, intimidating, exciting, joyful. This is my story so far. Yours is different. You have all the answers, all the strength you need, already inside you. You're not alone. I see you. I love you. 
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PS, this isn't a lecture! Y'all can ask me questions, leave comments here or in my DMs!
