take any of that "your 20s are your best years" "your thirties are for growing your career" horseshit and throw it right in the garbage. we're out here playing calvinball, and the least we can do is embrace the chaos and live interesting lives
i'm 32 which means i entered my 20s in a "once in a lifetime" bad job market and am in my 30s in a "one in my lifetime" pandemic/recession/civil war combo platter. there's no such thing as a coherent trajectory
"i should own a house right now" mmm okay here we are with that should word again, what i should do is stop trying to achieve prescribed patterns of wealth and acquisition in the midst of widespread collapse and suffering
what we "should" do is that we should have a functioning public health system and we should pay people to stay home and we should not have unchecked violent militias and racist police, but sure, i "should" have a robust retirement fund that didn't get wiped out this recession, k
i don't want to hear shit fuck about nostalgia for youth. if all goes well, best case scenario, i'm going to be vibing HARD in my 40s and 50s because i survived this monstrous time