I talk a lot about how much gendered socialization hurt me growing up. Being forced to experience a boys adolescence and feeling ostracized by my girl friends because they saw me as a boy.
But that doesn't mean I wanted "female socialization" either. It's all toxic.
But that doesn't mean I wanted "female socialization" either. It's all toxic.
My dad was awful at raising me. Only let me do "boy activities", called me a faggot when I cried, did everything he could to "make me a man" but my sister got the girl version of that and it enforced a lot of awful ideas about her place in the world I wouldn't want in my head.
Gender norms based on patriarchal expectations are all bad. Especially when they're reinforced rigorously and violently.
I am a woman, but I know if I was "socialized female" I'd have a whole other slew of emotional problems to work through in adulthood.
I am a woman, but I know if I was "socialized female" I'd have a whole other slew of emotional problems to work through in adulthood.
Maybe it has less to do with where I fit in on a gendered spectrum and more to do with being neurodivergent. Is there a version of Mia that could have existed within the confines laid out for me and thrived within them? I fucking doubt it.
I reject authority because I can't not.
I reject authority because I can't not.
We as trans people blame so much of our upbringing on "being raised wrong" but it's the system that allows those things.
Would I be more well adjusted if I was "socialized right"? Sexualized by creepy men at age 12? If my dad threatened my boyfriend with a gun on prom night? No.
Would I be more well adjusted if I was "socialized right"? Sexualized by creepy men at age 12? If my dad threatened my boyfriend with a gun on prom night? No.
MALE vs. FEMALE SOCIALIZATION says "You were raised as a boy and you'll carry that forever. You're not a woman because you didn't experience the pain of girlhood."
My womanhood isn't defined by trauma and we need to stop gatekeeping based on how much society hates you.
My womanhood isn't defined by trauma and we need to stop gatekeeping based on how much society hates you.
I wasn't "socialized male" I was "socialized as a faggot" People knew I was different from age 4 and they tried to beat it out of me. I didn't benefit from male priveledge, I didn't want to, I was a casualty of it.
Gendered socialization is inherently traumatizing. Burn it down.
Gendered socialization is inherently traumatizing. Burn it down.