I fucking hate how 15 years of having been gaslit by doctors who failed to diagnose my stage 4 endometriosis is still messing me up when it comes to pain. Struggling with kidney stones right now and my brain keeps telling me the pain isn't that bad.

I'm a highly functional chronic pain sufferer, which means I was often shamed by doctors for complaining about my intense pain. If I could do X, surely I couldn't be in that much pain?

I've internalised that, so now I keep telling myself the pain can't be all that bad, because I can bike my kid to school (and pick them up). Never mind that I'm taking two types of heavy painkillers just to take the edge off the pain.

Anyway, just another fun way in which endometriosis has screwed my life. Please consider donating to Endometriosis UK, which @Smutathon2020 is fundraising for this month so other women don't have their lives ruined by this horrible disease. https://smutathon.com/2019/08/27/donate/