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“maybe she liked it” FUCK YOU. i have been violently sexually harassed since i was a CHILD, i ignore comments like that because i am fucking exhausted...you know what i have the time tonight so im going to spell it out for you https://twitter.com/zarrulhelmy/status/1303574770265419783
i am going to say alot here so i really hope you all take the time to read and really LISTEN to what i have to say
TW / CW mental illness
TW / CW mental illness
i have been violently sexually harassed since i was a child, i have been constantly underpinned and devalued purely because people view me as a sexual object
i cannot control the way my body is, i have been overtly sexualised since i was a CHILD.. before i could even begin to understand my body, my autonomy was already being taken from me
i know alot of people are going to say the obvious; why didnt you stay offline? truth is i did, and i have and the reason im saying all this now is because i’ve take the time to reflect and heal and now im back and i’m ready to speak about it
another thing being that i have been in the performing industry since babyhood, why should i have to give up my passion to live in fear of sexual violence? you think its just comments online but i have been stalked and assaulted by my “followers” before
if you want the truth is i hated my body for a very long time, i remember begging my mum for a breast reduction surgery at THIRTEEN because a teacher said it was only natural for boys to see me as “sexy”
i shouldn’t be ashamed of my body and i should have the same freedom as other body types without having to be viewed as “pornographic” ( this includes DRESSING HOW I WANT )
i didn’t CHOOSE to go viral on 9gag... y’all remember this? i was barely 18, im now 21 and still dealing with severe anxiety and agoraphobia, alongside a personality disorder and dissociative disorder
i thought i was offered my “dream” at 16 only to find out later that i was being viewed as nothing but a commodified sex icon. i don’t post art or music anymore, this is why. i hope creatives can empathise with how this really broke me, i wanted to give up and run away, and i did
i have been conditioned to constantly feel ashamed of my body, IM ALLOWED TO IGNORE SEXUAL COMMENTS ABOUT ME do you know how much trauma and violence i have had to deal with in my lifetime? NO ONE LIKES THIS
im speaking on this now cause im honestly found peace with my body, its not going to stop me from being annoyed with yalls behaviour. but i choose to not be ashamed of my body anymore.
also thank you to deanna for understanding and defending me 
https://twitter.com/aiprazoivm/status/1303575744551903232
https://twitter.com/aiprazoivm/status/1303575744551903232
