Autists don't get angry.

We get aggressively tired.
You ever wake up in the morning an groan audibly because the world still sucks, people still suck, nothing has improved, and you know that you'll have to push through it and you're not allowed to complain because people will shit on you if you wear autism on your sleeve?
This year has really put us out, yeah?

Access and care for neuro-divergent people was the first thing to go in 2020, like people were just waiting for an excuse to not give a shit, and we're expected to just deal with it.

Even in leftist circles.

Yeah.

I said it.
ESPECIALLY in leftist circles.

Y'all act like you have enough good will stored up that you can get away with it; like your leftist card is enough that you don't have to do anything meaning.

"Don't be ableist."

But then the moment someone has an episode, you damn them.
Conservatives are obvious and consistent about not giving a shit. We can guard against it.

But you...

You're supposed to be our friends and allies. So wtf?

It's like a trophy for

you when you pretend to care, but then when you actually have to do something, it's our problem.
What's worse is that this shit sets a precedent for other young neuro-divergent people.

It tells us that we're not allowed to struggle with something we can't help.

It tells us that we're only "normal" when we fit your mold.

It tells us that ND behaviors should be called out.
Do you know what the longterm result of this conditioning is?

It's that we learn not to seek help. Rather than find a healthy way to deal with the struggle, you've taught us that it's not socially acceptable to express it.

And then we become a statistic.
I am absolutely going to lose friends and followers over this rant but

I
am
so
tired

of being abused...of seeing others like me abused by supposed allies.

This kills us.

Especially right now when we have no options.

Most of us are quietly fighting suicide.

Don't add to it.
Stop pretending to care about autistic and ND people and actually LISTEN TO US.

It's hard enough for most of us to speak up, to ask for help, to express a need.

So if we do speak up, fucking listen.

We don't ask for much.

We just need space sometimes.
This rant, in itself, is an example of an autistic behavior.

It comes from the fact that I, like every other autist, has been taught BY YOU to stay quiet; to apologize for our existence rather than remind you we have needs.

Because the moment we do, you frame us as problematic.
And as such, this rant is going to be framed as problematic.

When actually it's the result of a years worth of bottling quiet observation out of fear of harm.

The sad thing is it's not hard to actually do good in this category.

But I've been repeating "just listen" forever...
I'm just tired.

It's 2020.

And I have no safe space.
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