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I'm not endorsing this site or even this article necessarily but the concept is important imo.
I think a lot of us are panicked and uncomfortable partially because we're not fully getting how much we're wired not to face our own mortality https://psychcentral.com/blog/making-peace-with-mortality-in-the-age-of-coronavirus/
I think a lot of us are panicked and uncomfortable partially because we're not fully getting how much we're wired not to face our own mortality https://psychcentral.com/blog/making-peace-with-mortality-in-the-age-of-coronavirus/
I've had two near-death experiences since the pandemic started, and neither was even actually directly coronavirus-related. In retrospect I was very unlikely to die in either case but while they were happening they very much felt like I might
The second one in particular, I went to sleep legitimately thinking that I wasn't going to wake up, so as I fell asleep I had to think about whether or not I felt like my life had been "worth it"
Weirdly, and this might be the nihilist in me, I realized it didn't matter, and I was comfortable with that. Life doesn't matter or not matter, it just sort of is. It's a block of time for which you exist
So I fell right asleep, because either I was going to wake up or I wasn't. It just sort of is what it is. Doesn't mean I don't have any fear of death left in my body, necessarily
It's just that I'm going to be very careful and do everything I can not to die or catch this virus, and still fate might have something else in mind
And whatever happens doesn't have anything to do with whether I've been good enough or bad enough to deserve it, it just is going to be what it's going to be
Idk, I hope that's comforting to some. If not, that's okay too, there are as many variations on this as there are people in the world. It's been helpful for me though 
