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as someone who does therapy/ has to take mood meds it took me a while to get past the defensiveness that you often need just to reach out for help and accept that a chunk of this is an understandable response to the world around me. The problems don't all originate in yourself. https://twitter.com/AbiWilks/status/1291747183063183360
Like I've grown very good at recognizing shitty thought processes and bad coping methods and destructive tendencies and what is just a bad brain day etc but when we were struggling hard those only were good for making me better at handling it. That has limits.
You know when I was most relaxed, even, and balanced? The few months where I didn't work at all and just hiked 2 or 3 times a week. It didn't solve all of my own bullshit but it turns out that being briefly free some of those material issues and fears really helps!
Idk the way that self care and treatment and mindfulness and self improvement are marketed takes really useful things and uses them to center your own brain as the site of the struggle when a whole lot of your problems stem from outside you. Others have written about this.
I was really resistant to this idea for awhile bc I'd had to build up the courage and humility and money to seek help in the first place and people are so dismissive and shitty about that sometimes that it makes you defensive about it.
Anyway do what you gotta do, therapy and meds etc can be crucial if you can even access them, but these days I really have to remind myself that feeling super down and stressed isn't just me having some personal chemical or coping issue. Shit is just bad out there.
I never tweet about this stuff because mental health therapy self care twitter is godawful and people also want every statement about such things to be a universal truth they must directly identify with or else it's an attack on them. Just saying this all isn't just in your head
Anyway universal healthcare would potentially make a lot of this a whole lot easier to deal with and that's yet another reason why so many of us are such horrible leftist purity bros smdh
Last thing- the mental health struggles in NITW were largely based on my own, just split up over multiple characters, and I guess I wanted to locate the problem as being simultaneously something off in Mae's head + a reaction to her environment + lack of access to good care.
Like I said I don't talk about this much bc I don't much care to discourse about it or if it's correct for all readers or whatever but however good or bad I did in that game writing those aspects of it, it was at least true to my experiences.
Ok that's it I'm done
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Doing the Men In Black mind eraser thing at the end of all tweet threads now
