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With the new MS1s in mind, I thought #MedTwitter could help normalize some of our own first year ‘lows’ and to show how far we’ve come despite them.
*Everyone* has lows,
But everyone also has *HIGHS*
Let’s go, adelante:
*Everyone* has lows,
But everyone also has *HIGHS*
Let’s go, adelante:
1/ My anatomy prof was hardcore, previously known for unabashedly failing large %’s of students. Until our curriculum changed with my class and he had to follow similar class structure and exams as our other 8 campuses.
2/ My class of 30 baby students had taken our second anatomy exam, scores showed we were average compared to the other campuses. Which was unacceptable to this prof. So he took scores from past anatomy classes and extrapolated them to the students’ Step 1 scores.
3/ He claimed if we had scored X on this previous exam, we should be concerned about passing Step 1. After 45 minutes of this, I was done. I left and went to the anatomy lab because I knew it was coming. My reaction under immense pressure? Tears. Guys cry too.
4/ Trying to stiff arm the emotions, I started the day’s dissection. Until I realized I was shedding tears onto my cadaver - running from my face to hers. And at that moment one of my strongest mentors poked her head into the dark lab, smiled in understanding, and left me to be.
5/ Souls of two people - one living, one passed - lifted me in that moment. It made me realize I hadn’t come that far for a grumpy, frustrated anatomy prof to tell me I wouldn’t make it. I *had* made it! I would be successful. I am successful.
6/ Scores are tough and I’ve never been good with them. But your success is that you’re in MEDICAL school. Which means you’re going to be a DOCTOR. Also, I haven’t used more than 25% of that crazy anatomy course in 4 years.
Fin/ I’m eagerly applying peds and finally found ‘my people.’ When you find them, you’ll know. Do your best, stay in the moment, never overlook the humanity in front of you. If you can’t find it, look harder - it’s everywhere in medicine. And it’s what keeps me going.
