was describing how I feel when I look at men and read BL and my sister said "Ezra..............that's what being horny is" and I haven't been the same. This was 3 days ago. I'm TWENTY. I'm also DISGUSTED as I've NEVER been horny in my life bc thAT IS NOT THE NINJA WAY
this isn't bc I hate men or anything it's bc I had sm trauma I literally couldn't process anything I was feeling including sexual attraction skdhkdjdks wow I'm rly healing I guess

Basically y'all know how Edward feels when he is around Bella or just existing??? Like constant existential crisis and "I'm a monster" mentality; that's me when I'm attracted to someone skndkdndkd