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ppl will always be like " stop turning triggers into a joke !!!!!!" but like i literally watched my fucking house burn down to the ground and watched my dad run back INTO a burning building and shit as mundane and dumb as that stupid " this is fine " dog comic triggers me badly
like genuinely it is not even a joke that post triggers me so fucking bad and it's the stupidest thing ever . especially the updated one where he's just sitting in a soot covered house and is just . complete anguish . that triggers me . because i know that feeling
i know the feeling of seeing your belongings covered in soot and picking something up off the ground just for the soot to get all over your hands and it's a disgusting horrible feeling it was so cold and it smelled horrible and i will never forget the smell or emotions i felt
im so tired of people dictating what does and doesn't trigger people because YOU CAN NOT DICTATE THAT . A TRIGGER CAN BE BIG OR SMALL , OBSCURE OR VERY COMMON ... ESPECIALLY YOU DUMBFUCKS WITHOUT PTSD .
i am sick and tired of people without ptsd thinking that they're protecting people with " actual ptsd " by making fun of triggers . i will NEVER be able to experience a bonfire without shaking or becoming extremely paranoid or scared ever again .
i'll never be able to sit through a standard routine fire drill ever again . i have had full on panic attacks because of fire drills . i have had the school counselor secretary laugh at me when i was visibly upset after two fire drills in a row . i had a panic attack and cried .
im genuinely just so tired . i didn't ask for my fucking house to burn down , triggers are not something you can fucking control and you people without ptsd need to drill that into your fucking heads because you're not HELPING . you are NOT . you are actively making it WORSE .
when you mock people openly for triggers you deem as dumb you are actively harming people with PTSD . you aren't " protecting us " AND WE DONT NEED YOUR PROTECTION PERIOD . YOU CAN HELP US BY TAGGING WHAT WE NEED TAGGED .
we are not obligated to tell you the details of our fucking trauma and you are not entitled to pry and pry and pry because you feel a trigger is obscure . it is NOT your business . you don't need to know the details of my house burning down but i'll explain anyway
the " this is fine " dog comic triggers me because it actively REMINDS me of my trauma . it reminds me of the pure anguish of watching your house go up in flames in front of me . the feeling of just " well , what now ?" after you lose your home .
it took weeks to even convince myself that my home was GONE . we would never go back . do you even know what it's like to see years worth of art just covered in soot ? just completely ruined and untouchable ? the feeling of soot makes my skin crawl . and i was covered in it
i will never be able to forget violently scrubbing myself in a hotel room shower at 5am becausethe soot eas so hard to remove . it stunk . it weighed me down my clothes smelled like soot for days. i had to go to school with a soot covered backpack that almost made me sob to hold
fire drills will never be the same for me . i can't experience new smells without going into a frenzy . the last time my lights flickered i went into a frenzy and unplugged every thing in the fucking house . triggers can be ANYTHING .
this thread got long and depressing and i apologize for that . thinking about it makes me very upset . but i just hope this can help people understand that PTSD isn't just for people who have been to war .
