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So...I was gonna tweet about this earlier anyway, so let me do a lil thread. CW: Discussing of weight/weight loss, body image issues (no disorder discussion, but could potentially be triggering for those who deal with them) https://twitter.com/DigiAtlas/status/1288850420794679297
Me getting Ring Fit was born out of a deep unhappiness with my body. It digs at me daily. I know where that misery came from and how it got there, and I also know that despite the fact that so many people around me with similar bodies are beautiful, I hate how I, personally, am.
I went into it because I wanted to lose weight. I've now done this for over a month (30 days on with a day off each week) and for the most part it...hasn't worked. Not really. I gained *more* weight for weeks, likely due to muscle building. I became more miserable.
But I also...felt better, physically. I went from doing 8 minutes of activity on difficulty 3 to, now, about 21-25 minutes of activity daily on difficulty 10. I sleep better. I can walk upstairs without being winded. I have more energy.
Feeling physically better is directly at odds with how my brain is telling me I look and feel, and that battle has manifested in me also, as of one week ago, dramatically shifting my diet too. I cut out most bread and dairy (I'm lactose intolerant). More veggies and fruits.
It's been a week, and I lost two pounds. We'll see how that goes. But I have a lot of brain work to do to recognize that that specfic number doesn't matter. The things that matter are that I am moving every day, staying active, and eating healthy stuff that makes me feel good.
I don't know if I'll ever be able to shake that stupid awful deep-seated Bad Brain telling me that if I'm not thin then there's something wrong with me. I certainly don't believe that about anyone else, so it's not fair to believe it about myself. Yet here we are.
But I have committed to continuing to do these things even if I don't lose a single pound, even if I gain them back or look ridiculous, because I know they are good for me and I do feel really, really good from being active and eating more green stuff. So. That's me and Ring Fit.
