I don’t know if I can go on in this field. I am lucky to have mostly avoided the harassment and abuse. On a personal level, my road has been easy. But economics is morally bankrupt. I worry that eventually it will crush me, ruin my drive to do good. And I can’t let that happen
I was already feeling this way. But then you see how economists have responded to the pandemic and recession. To the murder of George Floyd. And it has been sickening. We are worse than useless. We are complicit in the suffering of millions. Often actively make it worse
To even have a moral compass. To say I do my research with the goal of fighting for justice. To fight for the oppressed. That is seen as ideological. Diminishes your credibility as a scientist. But if we aren’t fighting for justice what is the fucking point?
I just keep asking myself. Can any good come from this cesspool of racism, sexism, contempt for the poor, militant both sides-ism? Can I be a part of that in good conscience?