Today I ran for 31 minute without stopping. 2 months ago, I couldn’t do 5.
I’m down 20 lbs from what was previously the highest weight of my life. I felt helpless and depressed. I wasn’t taking care of myself and I began to lose confidence in who I was.

1/8
I’ve always been against sharing my struggles. I’ve always felt it was a sign of weakness. I’ve never been comfortable asking for help.
toxic masculinity tells men like me to hold yourself together at all costs and not to expose the cracks in your armor.

2/8
I’ve spent my entire life hiding behind a combination of sarcasm and ego to show the world a picture of myself that I thought would help me. But it took me 3 decades to realize how badly I was hurting myself.

3/8
My mental health deteriorated and I found myself feeling so alone despite being surrounded by so many phenomenal people that love me. I didn’t feel deserving of their love. I’d brush off compliments and side step offers of support I so desperately needed.

4/8
My wife finally convinced me to talk to someone & pushed me to not just ask for help, but to pursue it. To pursue a love for myself cuz only loving her and the kids isnt enough. I need to be whole on my own. They can’t make me that. And I can’t fully show up for them w/o it.

5/8
So here I am. Flawed but determined. I’m in therapy. I’m pursuing myself & my health. And I’m seeing results.
It’s a long road, but if I can run for 31 mins w/o stopping, if I can teach myself how to ask for, and especially, accept, help, I know I can keep at this.

6/8
I want to set the example for my daughters. I want them to see how to pursue themselves and their happiness because that’s hard af. I want them to know that to struggle is human, but knowing when to ask for help is power.

7/8
I want my wife to see me thrive again. I want to show up. I want to be the man my family needs. I want to love myself.
Because a person who pursues themself so they can properly show up for others, IS SEXY AS FUCK!
It’s hard y’all. Brutal, even. But it’s one step at a time.

Fin
PS
my wife is the most phenomenal person on this planet. And I’d be lost without her.
PPS
My DMs are always open if you need someone to talk to. This shit ain’t easy and you aren’t alone. Holler if ever you need an ear. ❤️
PPPS
Black Lives Matter so gawd damned much, and if we aren’t willing to say that, then it’s not true that all lives matter. ✊
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