I think I'm still a bit surprised at how lonely the pandemic is. I'm okay and all that and am lucky to have somewhere to go every day and really cool and smart people to hang with while I'm at work. But...

I never considered how losing the ability to see a friend without stakes and planning and deep thought about your comfort level around masks really affect us. I get to go have backyard/front-porch drinks but all that care has maybe an isolating affect I couldn't have predicted.

I miss the casualness of going to dinner, having someone over, going for a walk, running into someone and having them sit down for a while, having a pint at a bar and chatting with the bartender and someone joining in. Those are small moments but they're meaningful.

I hope coming out of all of this I might spend a little less time inside, a little less time watching Netflix because I'm exhausted or socially anxious. I hope I spend more time at concerts, galleries, friends houses, or with friends at mine. I hope I say yes more often too.

Anyway again just want to say I'm okay (or as okay as we all are). I just hope we can keep the 'reach out to your friends' part of the early bread-baking pandemic months going even though you can have a caesar on a patio. Should take my own advice too.